"What I saw was no man," returned Rebecca, looking at him sternly. "No
earthly being could have stopped my heart with his glances. It was the
_Satan Mekatrig_ himself, who goeth to and fro on the earth, and
walketh up and down in it. I must have been having wicked thoughts
indeed this Sabbath, thinking of my new dress, for my Sabbath Angel
to have deserted me, and to let the Disturber and the Tempter assail
me unchecked." The poor, conscience-stricken woman burst into tears.
"My Rivkoly have wicked thoughts!" said Moshé incredulously, as he
smoothed her cheek. "If my Rivkoly puts on a new dress in honour of
the Sabbath, is not the dear God pleased? Why, where _is_ thy new
dress?"
"I have changed it for an old one," she sobbed. "I do not want to see
the demon again."
"The _Satan Mekatrig_ has no real existence, I tell thee," said Moshé,
irritated. "He only means our own inward thoughts, that distract us in
the performance of the precepts; our own inward temptations to go
astray after our eyes and after our hearts."
"Moshé!" Rebecca exclaimed in a shocked tone, "have I married an
Epikouros after all? My father, the Rav, peace be unto him, always
said thou hadst the makings of one--that thou didst ask too many
questions."
"Well, whether there is a _Satan_ or not," retorted her husband, "thou
couldst not have seen him; for the person thou describest is the man I
tell thee of."
"And thou keepest company with such a man," she answered; "a man who
scoffs at _Yiddishkeit_! May the Holy One, blessed be He, forgive
thee! Now I know why we have no children, no son to say _Kaddish_
after us." And Rebecca wept bitterly--for the children she did not
possess.
Their common cause of grief coming thus unexpectedly into their
consciousness softened them toward one another and dispelled the
gathering irritation. Both had a melancholy vision of themselves
stretched out stiff and stark in their shrouds, with no filial
_Kaddish_ breaking in upon and gladdening their ears. O if their souls
should be doomed to Purgatory, with no son's prayers to release them!
Very soon they were sitting hand in hand, reading together the
interrupted Psalms.
And a deep peace fell upon Moshé Grinwitz. So the immortal allegorist,
John Bunyan, must have felt when the mad longing to utter blasphemies
and obscenities from the pulpit was stifled; and when he felt his soul
once more in harmony with the Spirit of Good. So feel all men who have
wrestled with a Being in the darkness and prevailed.
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