Gothic fiction; Ireland -- History -- Rebellion of 1798 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Romans à clef
Humbled, not yet sufficiently, but miserable, her fair name blasted,
the jest of fools, the theme of triumphant malice, Calantha still gave
vent to every furious passion, and openly rebelled against those who
had abandoned her. She refused to see any one, to hear any admonitions,
and, sickening at every contradiction to her authority, insisted
upon doing things the most ill judged and unreasonable, to shew her
power, or her indignation. Struck with horror at her conduct, every
one now wrote to inform Lord Avondale of the absolute necessity of his
parting from her. Hints were not only given, but facts were held up
to view, and a life of folly, concluding in crime, was painted with
every aggravation. Calantha knew not at this time the eager zeal that
some had shewn, to hurl just vengeance upon a self-devoted victim.
She was informed therefore of Lord Avondale’s expected return, and
prepared to receive him with hardened and desperate indifference.
She feared not pain, nor death: the harshest words occasioned her
no humiliation: the scorn, the abhorrence of companions and friends,
excited no other sentiment in her mind than disgust. Menaced by every
one, she still forbore to yield, and boldly imploring if she were
guilty, to be tried by the laws of her country—laws, which though
she had transgressed, she revered, and would submit to, she defied
the insolence, and malice of private interference.
From this state, Calantha was at length aroused by the return of Lord
Avondale. It has been said, that the severest pang to one not wholly
hardened, is the unsuspicious confidence of the friend whom we have
betrayed, the look of radiant health and joy which we never more
must share, that eye of unclouded virtue, that smile of a heart at
rest, and, worse than all perhaps, the soft confiding words and fond
caresses offered after long absence. Cruel is such suffering. Such
a pang Calantha had already once endured, when last she had parted
from her lord; and for such meeting she was again prepared. She had
been ill, and no one had read the secret of her soul. She had been
lonely, and no one comforted her in her hours of solitude: she had
once loved Lord Avondale, but absence and neglect had entirely changed
her. She prepared therefore for the interview with cold indifference,
and her pride disdained to crave his forgiveness, or to acknowledge
itself undeserving in his presence. “He is no longer my husband,” she
repeated daily to herself. “My heart and his are at variance—severed
by inclination, though unhappily for both united by circumstances.
Let him send me from him: I am desperate and care not.”
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