Godey's Lady's Book, Vol. 48, June, 1854 — John Shaqi
Godey's Lady's Book, Vol. 48, June, 1854Various
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Godey's Lady's Book, Vol. 48, June, 1854
Various
Fashion -- 19th century -- Periodicals; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Women's periodicals, American
"Are you going to attend the examination of teachers on Saturday?"
"I have not decided. I am not engaged as a teacher."
"Well, never mind, go. If you cannot pass examination so well as Samantha
and the rest, go; it will do you good."
Samantha was her daughter, and had always been at school, and consequently
ought to have known more than she did; but opportunity does not always
make scholars any more than want of opportunity prevents others from
becoming such. Now, I had been at school with Samantha, and knew that,
if _she_ could bear examination as fitted for a teacher, _I_ could; and
I resolved to attend, and, if opportunity was given, I also would be
examined with the rest. And I did, and have _that_ certificate now.
No opportunity offered for teaching, however; in fact, I hardly
desired one, until I had more chance for improvement myself. I made my
arrangements, as I thought, for attending school the next winter; but
winter came, and the next summer passed, and still I was as far from
what I so earnestly desired as ever. I could not pay my board, and I
could not always get a place where I could work mornings and evenings for
it; my clothes would be worn; so, with one thing and another, it seemed
impossible that I should ever be anything but a drudge. Not that my pride
rebelled against doing the _kind_ of work I did, but so constant and
ceaseless and unsympathizing a round of duties left no time for thinking
except of what was just about me.
The elasticity of spirits that had sustained me heretofore was failing me;
for, worn with labor, I felt my mind, as it were, contracting upon itself,
and felt, if I could not break from the bondage, I should be miserable
enough. For that I could see no way. Now I had a dollar a week, and I must
earn it. My employers seemed to consider it treason against them if I so
much as looked into a book. From early in the morning until ten, eleven,
and often until the "small hours," I must labor; and, if I so much as made
myself a garment, I was charged for it, as if it had been hired for me.
I submitted to many impositions rather than contend about them, though I
questioned with myself if it was to last always. It did not last always. I
will relate one incident that occurred, and pass on to pleasanter days.
A glass dish that was cracked about half way across, I accidentally
finished breaking. I went immediately to the sitting-room, and explained
how it was done. Mrs. ---- did not appear displeased at what I had done;
told me not to mind; it was an old dish; she had expected for some time it
would come apart; there was enough more; told me what one to use in place
of it. There was also considerable conversation on the impropriety of
fretting if anything was accidentally broken; and she ended by saying, "I
make it a point _never_ to reproach my girls if an accident occurs."
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