Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 6, June 1842 — John Shaqi
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 6, June 1842Various
Science
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 6, June 1842
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
It is a dangerous thing when two young persons, of different sexes, are
thrown together in daily intercourse, especially when one, from his very
situation, is forced to depend on the other for the amusement of hours
that would otherwise hang heavily on him. The peril is increased when
either party is bound to the other by any real or fancied ties of
gratitude. But during the first delicious fortnight of convalescence I
was unconscious of this danger, and without taking any thought of the
future I gave myself wholly up to the enjoyment of the hour. For Miss
Neville I soon came to entertain a warm sentiment of regard, yet my
feelings for her were of a far different nature from those I entertained
for Annette. I did not, however, stop to analyze them, for I saw, or
thought I saw, that the pleasure I felt in Ellen’s society was mutual,
and I inquired no further. Alas! it never entered into my thoughts to
ask whether, while I contented myself with friendship, she might not be
yielding to a warmer sentiment. Had I been more vain perhaps this
thought might have occurred to me. But I never imagined—blind fool that
I was—that this constant intercourse betwixt us could endanger the
peace of either. If I could, I would have coined my heart’s blood sooner
than have won the love which I could not return. Yet such was my
destiny. My eyes were opened at length to the consequences of my
indiscretion.
We had been conversing one day of the expected arrival of the Arrow, and
I had spoken enthusiastically of my profession, and, perhaps, expressed
some restlessness at the inactive life I was leading, when I noticed
that Ellen sighed, looked more closely at her work, and remained silent
for some time. At length she raised her eyes, however, and said,
“How can you explain the passion which a sea-man entertains for his
ship? One would think that your hearts indulged in no other sentiment
than this engrossing one.”
“You wrong us, indeed, Ellen,” I said, “for no one has a warmer heart
than the sailor. But we have shared so many dangers with our ship, and
it has been to us so long almost our only world, that we learn to
entertain a sort of passion for it, which, I confess, seems a miracle to
others, but which to us is perfectly natural. I love the old Arrow with
a sentiment approaching to monomania, and yet I have many and dear
friends whom I love none the less for this passion.”
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