Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXI, No. 4, October 1847Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXI, No. 4, October 1847
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“Hold, doctor, do not seek so far for the cause of my affliction, do not
feel my pulse, it is my heart which beats too quick. Ascribe it to what
you will, but I am vexed this morning. William is about to leave me, he
is going to the next village, on the other side of the mountain, to
receive some money sent to us.”
“And when will he return?” I asked.
She smiled, blushed slightly, and then with a look that seemed to say,
do not laugh at me, answered, “this evening.”
I could not help smiling, in spite of her imploring look.
At this moment a servant brought to the steps the horse that Mr.
Meredith was going to ride. Eva rose, went down into the garden,
approached the horse, and playing with his mane, leaned her head on the
animal’s neck, perhaps to hide her tears. William came, and springing on
his horse, gently raised his wife’s head.
“Child,” he said, whilst he fondly gazed on her and kissed her forehead.
“William, it is because we have not yet been separated so many hours
together.”
Mr. Meredith bent forward, and again impressed a kiss on her forehead;
he then put spurs to his horse and rode off at full speed. I am
confident he, too, was somewhat affected. Nothing is so contagious as
the weakness of those we love; tears beget tears, and he has self
command, indeed, who can look on a weeping friend and resist their
influence.
I left the spot and entered my own little chamber, where I began to
think of the great happiness of loving. I put the question to myself
whether an Eva would ever partake of my humble dwelling. I did not
consider if I was worthy of love. Good heavens! when we look on beings
devoted to each other, we can easily see that it is not on account of
certain reasons and things they love so well—they love because it is
necessary for them, inevitably so; they love on account of their own
heart, not that of others. Well, this happy chance, which brings
together souls that have need of love, I sought to find, even as in my
morning walks I would seek for a scented flower. And thus I dreamed,
although it is a culpable feeling which, on seeing the happiness of
others, makes us regret our own want of it. Is it not partly envy? And
if joy could be stolen, like gold, should we not be tempted to possess
ourselves of it?
The day slipped away, and I had just finished my frugal supper, when a
message came from Madame Meredith, imploring me to come to her house. In
five minutes I was at the door of the white house. I found Eva still
alone, seated on a sofa, unemployed, without even a book, pale and
flurried. “Come in, doctor, come in,” she said, in her sweet manner; “I
cannot stay alone any longer. See how late it is; he should have been
here two hours ago, and he has not yet returned.”
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