Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 3, September 1849 — John Shaqi
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 3, September 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 3, September 1849
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Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“I know—I know,” said the girl, suddenly blushing very deeply, “that
you are every thing that is good and great; every thing that men ought
to admire and women to love, and yet—”
“And yet you cannot love me. Well, think no more of that, Theresa.
Forget—”
“Never! never!” she exclaimed, clasping her hands eagerly together. “I
never can forget what you have made me feel, what I must have made you
_suffer_ this day.”
“Well, if it be so, remember it, Theresa; but remember it only thus.
That if you have quenched my love, if you destroyed my hope, you have
but added to my regard, to my affection. Promise me that whereever you
may be, however, or with whomsoever your lot shall be cast, you will
always remember me as your friend, your brother; you will always call on
me at your slightest need, as on one who would shed his heart’s blood to
win you a moment’s happiness.”
“I will—I will,” she cried affectionately, fervently. “On whom else
should I call. And God only knows,” she added, mournfully, “how soon I
shall need a protector. But will you,” she continued, catching both his
hands in her own, “will you be happy, Durzil?”
“I will,” he replied, firmly, returning the gentle pressure, “I will, at
least in so far as it rests with man to be so, in despite of fortune.
But mark me, dear Theresa, if you would have me be so, you can even yet
do much toward rendering me so.”
“Can I—then tell me, tell me how, and it is done already.”
“By letting me see that _you_ are happy.”
“Alas!” and again she clasped her hand hard over her heart, as if to
still its violent beating. “Alas! Durzil.”
“And why, alas! Theresa?”
“Can we be happy at our own will?”
“Independently of great woes, great calamities, which we may not
control, which are sent to us for wise ends from above—surely, I say,
surely we can.”
“And can you, Durzil?”
“Theresa, _this_ is to me a great wo—yea, a great calamity; and yet I
reply, ay! after a time, after the bitterness shall be overpast, I can,
and more, I will. Much more, then, can you, who have never felt, who I
trust and believe will never meet any such wo or grief—much more can
you be happy. Wherefore should you not, foolish child—have you not been
happy hitherto? What have you, that you should not be happy now?”
“Nothing,” she replied, faintly. “I have nothing why I should be
unhappy, unless it be, if I have made you so.”
“Theresa, you have not—you shall see that you have not—made me
unhappy.”
“And yet, Durzil, yet I feel a foreboding that I shall be, that I must
be unhappy. A want—I feel a want of something here.”
“You are excited, agitated now; all this has been too much for your
spirits, for your nerves; and I think, Theresa, I am sure that you are
too much alone—you think, or rather you muse and dream, which are not
healthy modes of thinking—too much in solitude. I will speak to my
uncle about that before I go—”
“Before you go!” she interrupted him, quickly. “Go, whither?”
“To sea. To my ship, Theresa.”
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