Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 4, October 1849Various
General
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 4, October 1849
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“Leave me!” she said, after a little pause, during which she, in her
turn gazing upon him, now bewildered and abashed, with eyes of serene
wonder, not all unmingled with contempt—“Nay! not another word—leave
me—begone! You are not worthy of a woman’s love—you are not worthy to
be treated or regarded as a man. Leave me, I say, and trouble me no
more. Poor, weak, mean-spirited, vain, jealous, and ungenerous, begone!
You know—no man knows better—the falsehood of the last words you have
spoken. No man knows better their unfeelingness, their ungenerous
cruelty. But if I had—if I had loved another—in what does that concern
you? In what am I responsible to you for my likings or dislikings? Once
and for all be it said, I love you not—should not love you, were you
the only one of your sex on the face of God’s earth—and I pray God to
help and protect the woman who shall love you—if ever you be loved of
woman, which I for one believe not—for she shall love the veriest
tyrant that ever tortured a fond heart, under the plea of loving.”
“I go,” he replied. “I am answered, once and for all. I go, and may
_you_ never need my aid, my forgiveness.”
“Forgiveness!” she exclaimed, with a contemptuous glance. “Forgiveness!
I know not what _you_ have to forgive! But you should rather pray that I
_may_ have need of them; then may _you_ have the pleasure of refusing me
at my need.”
“Ah! it is thus you think of me. It is time, then, that I should leave
you. Fare you well, Theresa.”
“There is no need for farewells at present. The day is early yet; and I
trust still to see your temper changed before you set forth on your
journey. It would grieve my father sorely that you should leave us
thus.”
“He will not know how I leave you. He will see me no more for
years—perhaps never!”
“What do you mean?”
“That I shall mount my horse within this half hour, and return no more
until I shall have twice crossed the Atlantic. So fare you well,
Theresa.”
“Fare you well, Durzil, if it must be so. And God bless you, and send
you a better mind. You will be sorry for this one day. There is my hand,
fare you well; and rest assured of this, return when you may, you will
find me the same Theresa.”
He took her hand, and wrung it hard. “Farewell,” he said. “Farewell; and
God grant that when I do return, I find you the wife, and not the
mistress, of Jasper St. Aubyn.”
Ungenerous and bitter to the last, he winged the shaft at random, which
he hoped would pierce the deepest, which he trusted would prevent the
consummation he most dreaded—that she _should be_ the wife of the boy
whom he had saved, whom he now hated.
The other contingency, at which he had hinted basely, unmanly, brutally,
he knew to be impossible—but he knew also, that the surmise would gall
her beyond endurance. That, that was the cruel, the unworthy object of
the last words Durzil Bras-de-fer ever exchanged in this world with
Theresa Allan.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account