Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXVI, No. 1, January 1850Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXVI, No. 1, January 1850
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
At the age of twenty-two young Ellison, who had for some two or three
years been devoting himself earnestly to the art of drawing and
painting, found himself hemmed in with difficulties and discouragements
that seemed almost insurmountable. The goal he aspired to win was so far
distant that his eyes could scarcely reach it, and between lay barriers
that he sadly feared he would never be able to pass. Without an income,
and without friends to sustain him for a few years until he could
command the patronage of those who loved the arts, how was he to sustain
himself? To go abroad and study the works of the old masters in Italy
was the dearest wish of his life; but there was no hope of this—at
least not in the present, for the little profitable work he was able to
procure scarcely gave him food and decent raiment, and was not, when
completed, in a style of art at all flattering to his vanity.
“Oh! if I only had the means of studying abroad for two or three years,
and not thus be compelled to disgrace myself and the profession by
painting mere daubs of portraits in order to get my daily bread,” would
fall from his lips over and over again, as he threw aside his brush and
pallet and yielded himself up to desponding thoughts. His hopes were too
ardent and his imagination too bright for the cold realities of the
present. Patience and perseverance amid difficulties were not the
leading elements of his character. A lover of art, and possessing a high
appreciation of the beautiful, all that he had yet been able to
accomplish appeared in his eyes so poor and defective, that he rather
shrunk from than courted public attention.
“If I could but hide myself away for two or three years, and devote all
that time to the study and practice of art, how happy I would be! Then I
could come before the public and present something worthy of the native
ability I possess, and worthy to stand beside the productions of those
who have won an honored name in the profession.” Thus would he indulge
in dreams of what for the present was unattainable, and idly repose for
a season under a sense of bitter discouragement.
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