Grey Wethers: A Romantic NovelSackville-West, V. (Victoria)
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Grey Wethers: A Romantic Novel
Sackville-West, V. (Victoria)
Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Romance fiction; Social classes -- Fiction
“You have surely thought for long enough about the past,” she said idly.
Again he seized upon her words, and she reflected with some amusement
that she had never imagined any one so susceptible to suggestion.
“I will act on what you say,” he exclaimed. He went across to his
writing table and took from his drawer an etching of a woman, slightly
tinted, with coarse curly hair, cruel eyes, and a large beautiful
mouth. Calladine tore it into fragments; he flung the pieces on the
ground and stamped on them. “I never had the courage to do that
before,” he said, staring at Clare and breathing heavily; he looked
really frightened at what he had done, and she knew that he wanted
her to reassure him. For her part she wanted to laugh, but knew that
she must not. “You should have done it years ago,” she said sensibly,
“instead of living in the house with that locked into your drawer.”
“I used to take it out in the evening and pore over it until it nearly
came alive,” whispered Calladine. He kicked the fragments with his
toe. “You are my angel,--my guardian,” he said, turning passionately to
Clare.
She saw that the contradictory being was greatly shaken by what he
had done. “He will regret it, and be glad,--be glad, and then regret
again,” she thought shrewdly to herself. She wondered whether she had
done wisely in not stopping his hand: would he be freed henceforth, or
would he be haunted? “Now burn those pieces,” she said with authority,
“or I shall think of you trying to piece them together again, when you
sit alone here in the evenings.” The idea was half-frightening to her,
and half-absurd. “Burn them,” she repeated, pointing to the grate.
There was no fire, but Calladine obediently gathered up the fragments
and burnt each one separately, holding its corner to a lighted match.
Clare watched him, thinking how familiar must once have been to him
those shredded features, how he must have kissed that beautiful mouth
and imagined that he sought for truth in those narrow eyes which only
returned him mockery. He knelt beside the grate, burning carefully, and
crumbling the charred paper between his fingers, piece by piece. She
felt sorry for him suddenly.
“You must not be lonely without your picture,” she said with great
gentleness.
“I hated it,” said Calladine; “let it go; you have delivered me. You
saw her, didn’t you, before I burnt her? you saw her exactly as she
was: I was no match for her.” Clare thought that he could probably
say this without exaggeration, and that, had she herself met the
other woman, few words would have been necessary between them for the
understanding of Calladine. How deep was the confederacy of sex! she
had never thought of it before; she smiled at Calladine with a detached
pity. “I have no longer any past,” he went on, “only the present,
hourly more lovely. Shall we go out for a little and leave the dust of
the past to settle in this room?”
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