"Perhaps I'd better tell Mr. Rose, Yrmnts, that we've already gone very
deeply into his case," the bishop said. "It will make it easier for him
to speak when he knows that it is not information we're seeking, but
his personal point of view."
"Indeed it will," said George; "and I sincerely thank Your Lordship.
If you already know the facts, you will be able to check my narrative;
and all I have to do is to state the said facts to the best of my
knowledge and belief. I will begin with my career at Maryvale, where
I was during a scholastic year of eight months as an ecclesiastical
subject of the Bishop of Claughton, and where I received the Tonsure.
At the end of those eight months, my diocesan wrote that he was unable
to make any further plans for me, because there was not (I quote his
words) an unanimous verdict of the superiors in favour of my Vocation.
This was like a bolt from the blue: for the four superiors verbally
had testified the exact contrary to me. Instantly I wrote, inviting
them to explain the discrepancy. It was the Long Vacation. In reply,
the President averred inability to understand my diocesan's statement:
advised me to change my diocese; and volunteered an introduction
to the Bishop of Lambeth, in which he declared that my talents and
energy (I am quoting again) would make me a very valuable priest. The
Vice-president declined to add anything to what he already had told
me. A dark man, he was, who hid inability under a guise of austerity.
The Professor of Dogmatic Theology said that he never had been asked
for, and never had volunteered, an opinion. The Professor of Moral
Theology, who was my confessor, said the same; and, further, he
superintended my subsequent correspondence with my bishop. You will
mark the intentions of that act of his. However, all came to nothing.
The Bishop of Claughton refused to explain, to recede, to afford me
satisfaction. The Bishop of Lambeth refused to look at me, because the
Bishop of Claughton had rejected me. It was my first introduction to
the inexorability of the Roman Machine, inexorable in iniquity as in
righteousness."
"Did you form any opinion at this juncture?" the cardinal inquired,
waving a white hand.
"I formed the opinion that someone carelessly had lied: that someone
clumsily had blundered; and that all concerned were determined not
to own themselves, or anyone else but me, to be in the wrong. A
mistake had been made; and, by quibbles, by evasions, by threats,
by every hole-and-corner means conceivable, the mistake was going
to be perpetuated. Had the case been one of the ordinary type of
ecclesiastical student, (the hebete and half-licked Keltic class I
mean,) either I furiously should have apostatized, or I mildly should
have acquiesced, and should have started-in as a pork-butcher or a
cheesemonger. But those intellectually myopic authorities were unable
to discriminate; and they quite gaily wrecked a life. Oh yes: I formed
an opinion; and I very freely stated it."
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