Harper's New Monthly Magazine, No. XXIII.—April, 1852.—Vol. IV.: NoneVarious
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Harper's New Monthly Magazine, No. XXIII.—April, 1852.—Vol. IV.: None
Various
American literature -- Periodicals; Civilization -- Periodicals; Culture -- Periodicals
I remained with my friend a fortnight, studying the midnight effects of
the iron-foundries, and cultivating the acquaintance of Julia. In these
two congenial occupations, the time passed like lightning, and I woke as
from a pleasant dream, to the knowledge of the fact, that my visit was
expected to be brought to a close. I had been asked, I remembered, for a
week, and I had doubled my furlough. I hinted at breakfast, that I was
afraid I must leave my kind friends to-morrow, and a general regret was
expressed, but no one asked me to stay longer; so the die was unhappily
cast.
Julia was melancholy. I could not but observe it; and I confess that the
observation caused me more pleasure than pain. Could it be sorrow at my
departure? We had been daily, almost hourly, companions for fourteen
days, and the surmise was not unreasonable. She had always shown me
particular kindness, and she could not but have seen my marked
preference for her. My heart beat wildly as I gazed on her pale cheek
and drooping eyelid; for though she had been always still and gentle, I
had never seen--certainly I had never noticed--such evident traces of
sorrow, as I saw in her face to-day. Oh, if it were for me, how I would
bless each pang which pained that beautiful heart!--how I would cherish
the tears that fell, as if they had been priceless diamonds from the
mine!--how I would joy in her grief and live in her despair! It might be
that out of evil would come good, and from the deep desolation of my
unsold "Body" might arise the heavenly blessedness of such love as this!
I was intoxicated with my hopes; and was on the point of making a public
idiot of myself, but happily some slight remnant of common sense was
left me. However, impatient to learn my fate, I drew Julia aside; and,
placing myself at her feet, while she was enthroned on a luxurious
ottoman, I pretended that I must conclude the series of lectures on art,
and the best methods of coloring, on which I had been employed with her
ever since my visit.
"You seem unhappy to-day, Miss Reay," I said, abruptly, with my voice
trembling like a girl's.
She raised her large eyes languidly. "Unhappy? no, I am never unhappy,"
she said, quietly.
Her voice never sounded so silvery sweet, so pure and harmonious. It
fell like music on the air.
"I have, then, been too much blinded by excess of beauty to have been
able to see correctly," I answered. "To me you have appeared always
calm, but never sad; but to-day there is a palpable weight of sorrow on
you, which a child might read. It is in your voice, and on your eyelids,
and round your lips; it is on you like the moss on the young
rose--beautifying while vailing the dazzling glory within."
"Ah! you speak far too poetically for me," said Julia, smiling. "If you
will come down to my level for a little while, and will talk to me
rationally, I will tell you my history. I will tell it you as a lesson
for yourself, which I think will do you good."
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