Family life -- Fiction; Farm life -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
He could not shed tears or get up much emotion; neither could he rid
himself of the dull weight at heart. The minister, the brethren and
sisters, prayed for him and over him, but nothing removed his terrible
inertia. He became a familiar form on the anxious seat for there was a
dogged persistence in his nature which prevented him from giving up;
but at the close of each meeting he went home in a state of deeper
dejection. Sometimes, in returning, he was Bessie Jones' escort, and
her happiness added to his gall and bitterness. One moonlight night
they stopped under the shadow of a pine near her father's door, and
talked over the matter a few moments before parting. Bessie was full
of sympathy which she hardly knew how to express. Unconsciously, in
her earnestness--how well he remembered the act!--she laid her hand on
his arm as she said, "James, I guess I know what's the matter with you.
In all your seeking you are thinking only of yourself--how bad you've
been and all that. I wouldn't think of myself and what I was any more,
if I was you. You aint so awful bad, James, that I'd turn a cold
shoulder to you; but you might think I was doing just that if ye stayed
away from me and kept saying to yourself, 'I aint fit to speak to
Bessie Jones.'"
Her face had looked sweet and compassionate, and her touch upon his arm
had conveyed the subtle magic of sympathy. Under her homely logic, the
truth had burst upon him like sunshine. In brief, he had turned from
his own shadow and was in the light. He remembered how in his deep
feeling he had bowed his head on her shoulder and murmured, "Oh,
Bessie, Heaven bless you! I see it all."
He no longer went to the anxious seat. With this young girl, and many
others, he was taken into the church on probation. Thereafter, his
fancy never wandered again, and there was no other girl in Oakville for
him but Bessie. In due time, he had gone with her to yonder meeting
house to be married. It had all seemed to come about as a matter of
course. He scarcely knew when he became formally engaged. They "kept
company" together steadfastly for a suitable period, and that seemed to
settle it in their own and everybody else's mind.
There had been no change in Bessie's quiet, constant soul. After her
words under the shadow of the pine tree she seemed to find it difficult
to speak of religious subjects, even to her husband; but her simple
faith had been unwavering, and she had entered into rest without fear
or misgiving.
Not so her husband. He had his spiritual ups and downs, but, like
herself, was reticent. While she lived, only a heavy storm kept them
from "going to meeting," but with Holcroft worship was often little
more than a form, his mind being on the farm and its interests.
Parents and relatives had died, and the habit of seclusion from
neighborhood and church life had grown upon them gradually and almost
unconsciously.
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