Exiles -- Russia (Federation) -- Siberia -- Fiction; Prisons -- Russia (Federation) -- Siberia -- Fiction
So, in due course, Hope Arskaïa became Hope Palma, and no littleness
of mind imputes to Paul Pavlof from the fact that, when he got the
offer of a small medical appointment in Moscow, he accepted it
instantly, and Odessa knew him no more. He was very human, and he
loved Hope Arskaïa to the very depths of his aching heart.
Consideration for his own peace of mind might not have carried him to
this final extremity of exile. He might, indeed, have found a gloomy
satisfaction, something not very far removed from a flagellant
pleasure, in watching her from afar, meeting her occasionally, and
nursing in secret the thought that her heart had surely been his
before she consummated her great self-sacrifice to duty by becoming
Palma's wife.
But he was too big a man for that. If Hope could sacrifice herself
for her life's work, so he could sacrifice himself for love of her.
It would indeed have been a sore trial to any man to watch from the
outer darkness the happiness which, under equal circumstances, might
have been his.
If he had seen any possibility of service to Hope he would have
suffered and rejoiced. But there was no visible call for sympathy on
Hope's account after her marriage with Palma. She seemed quite
contented, nay, even happy, and Pavlof, pondering this strange matter
in the light of a deeper understanding of her than most, imputed to
her neither lightness nor forgetfulness.
He had known her better than any, and he knew that, compared with the
work which she looked upon as an inheritance of sacred obligation
from her father, her own well-being, prosperity, happiness, were as
nothing and less than nothing.
To some it may seem that altruism so complete as this is visionary
and overdrawn. The history of the evolutionary movement in Russia
has given us many examples. Not that I would, for one moment, be
supposed to hint that Russia monopolises, or even possesses in higher
degree than other countries, this mighty force of self-sacrifice.
But, in happier lands, the self-sacrificing dree their weirds below
the level surface of life, obscure and unknown; whereas, in Russia,
their lives and sufferings and deaths are, by force of circumstances,
flashed luridly on the screen and set the startled world aghast at
times.
He saw that she was contented in her new life. His presence in
Odessa could afford her no pleasure, might even cause her a twinge of
regret at times, for, with all the will in the world, a quiet face
was all he could compass, and cheerfulness was hardly to be expected
of him.
So he called upon her once after her marriage, to say farewell, and
then he went away to Moscow.
He might have denied himself even this visit, and he debated the
matter within himself for some time before deciding on it. Then it
seemed to him that Hope might reasonably feel hurt by such avoidance,
and by such a lapse from the ordinary rules of courtesy, and he went.
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