"But will you not understand?" she pleaded. "It was the last desperate
resource of love. I could not reach the real you. I tried for weeks.
I endured insufferable associations. I assumed distasteful
interests—all to put myself in your company; to keep you in mine; to
create those proximities, those environments and situations in which
love grows naturally. Again and again I thought that love was springing
up. But I was disappointed. You did not respond. What I thought at
first was response was only sympathy. To you I was no longer a woman.
I was a subject in spiritual pathology.
"When I saw this, first it irritated, then maddened me. I knew that you
were not yourself, that your environment had insulated you. That you
were so interested in the part which you were playing,—so absorbed by
the duty of being a public idol, that you could not be yourself, the
man, the flesh, the heart, I know you are.
"In desperation I resolved to strip you, to hurl you down, to rob you of
the public regard, of your church, of everything; to strip you until you
were nothing but the man who once held me in his arms, his whole body
quivering, and demanding with all his nature to possess me."
As the woman spoke, her voice had risen, and a half-insane enthusiasm
was gleaming on her face, while her fingers reached restlessly after the
minister who, as unconsciously as she advanced, receded until he stood
cornered against the door.
"Now," she continued, in her frenzied exaltation of mood, "it is done!
You see how easily it was accomplished. Nothing should be so
disillusioning, so reawakening to you as to observe how light is your
hold upon this community, how selfish and insincere was all this public
adulation. I, a stranger almost, of whom these people knew nothing, was
able, with a ridiculously impossible charge, to brush you from your
eminence like a fly.
"Of what worth has it all been? Of what worth all that you can do for
people like these? Your very church is turning against you. It will
cast you out."
A shade had crossed the brow of Hampstead.
"You think that?" he asked defiantly.
"I know it," Marien replied aggressively. "That square-headed old Elder
came to see me this afternoon. Shaking his hand was like taking hold of
a toad. Ugh! He wanted to pry into your past through me, the old
reprobate!"
"Hush! I will not hear him defamed. He is an honorable and a
well-meaning man, against whose character not one word can be breathed."
Marien’s eyes flashed. Impatient and regardless of interruption, she
continued as though Hampstead had not spoken.
"And he, the father of the man you are suffering to shield, is to be the
first to take advantage of your misfortune. The old Pharisee! I nearly
told him who the real thief was."
"Miss Dounay!"
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