At first John recoiled a little at this talk of a utilitarian extraction
from her bitter experience and his; yet he reflected that it was like
the woman. It was but the outcrop of the dominant passion. Since
girlhood she had seen herself solely in terms of relation to her art;
therefore this attitude now indicated, not a lack of fineness, but her
almost noble capacity for converting everything to the ultimate object
of the artist. Without such capacity for abandon, there was, he
reflected, no supreme artist; and, he reasoned further, no supreme
minister—or man, even. To this extent and in this moment, Marien’s
bearing in defeat was a lesson and a spur to him.
"I shall go widowed to my work," she went on to say, "but it will be a
greater work than I could have done before. Then I had an ambition.
Now I have a mission! To show women—and men too—the worth and weight
and height and depth and paramount value of love."
Hampstead was again deeply impressed with her enormous resiliency of
spirit. The woman’s heart had been torn to pieces; yet while each nerve
and fiber of it was a pulse of pain, she was purposing to bind the thing
together and let its every throb be a word of warning to womankind.
"I learned it from you," she explained, almost as if she had read his
thoughts. "I understand now the exalted mood in which you spoke a few
minutes ago. I am sorry that I have lost you; but I am not sorry that I
have hurled you down, since it leaves revealed a nobler figure of a man
than I had thought existed."
Hampstead shuddered, in part at his own pain, in part at the ease with
which she uttered the sentiment, because this woman could really never
know how much his fall had cost him.
"Each of us in life I fear must be held to answer for his own
obtuseness," he suggested.
"But that is not all we are held to answer for," Miss Dounay replied
with sudden perception. "We must pay the penalty of the obtuseness of
others."
"Ah!" exclaimed the minister quickly. "There you stumbled upon one of
the greatest truths in religion, the law of vicarious suffering. We are
each compelled, whether we will or not, to suffer for the sins of
others. If we, you or I, mere humanity that we are, can so manage such
suffering that it becomes a redemptive influence over the life of the
one who caused it, we have done in a small and distant way the thing
which the Son of Man did so perfectly for all the world."
"I see," she exclaimed eagerly, pressing her hands together in a sort of
rapture. "It is that which you have done for me. You have suffered for
my sin, and you have so managed the suffering that you have taken away
some of my selfishness and will send me out of here, as I said before,
not with an ambition, but with a mission."
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