However, no judge had made the call. How narrowly had some old and
obtuse public servant escaped unlocking the lips of a Milton, mute and
inglorious, who sat in a shiver of hope awaiting the summons. To be
sure, no judge had known of so strange a presence, but had one of these
venerable guardians been aware of it, in the public interest he would
still have passed him by. For what is more contemptible than elevation
of any kind when it seeks a platform on which to declare itself?
Suppose the call came to-night! The suggestion was conveyed in the
rages of the wind buffeting the cheeks of the unhappy man. Gasping,
drenched, and excited almost beyond the verge of reason, he withdrew
his face from the elements and closed the window. The lamp on the table
had gone out, the few ashes in the grate gave a mere feeble spark. In
spite of the overcoat and thick gloves which he wore, the coldness of
the room oppressed him like a sepulchre. His feet were frozen; he had
no tobacco; the clock at the Law Courts was chiming nine. Yet suppose
it came! Why not? Why not demand it with all the fervor of his nature,
like others who had sought their opportunity had done so often?
He could not understand this fever which had stretched him upon the
rack. It might be that the lack of the meanest necessaries had told
too severely upon his frame. Indeed, he was starving by degrees. His
limbs--huge, knotted things--had withered until he was ashamed. His
skin was so pale, his cheeks so wasted, that when his eyes flamed out
in all their cadaverous lustre the prosperous shrank from him as though
he were a ghost or a leper.
However, he did not covet the heritage of others. Sharp as his belly
was to-night, ragged as was his back, he must not purchase the cuisine
and raiment of princes at the price that was asked. Were he to inhabit
the body of Crœsus, he would have also to inhabit his soul. Throned
amid pomp, he would have dined that evening to the strains of Beethoven
under the shadows of Velasquez and Raphael. He would have eaten the
manna of the wilderness served upon gold plate; have drunk the fabulous
Falernian, with pearls from the Orient dissolved in it to heighten the
bouquet. Gorgeous houris, whose eyes and jewels were jealous of one
another, whose breaths were perfumed, whose lips were laden with music,
would have been on his right hand and on his left. Yet he would neither
have seen, nor heard, nor felt, nor tasted; for those who partook of
such a feast could neither know nor understand.
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