Deception -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Fiancées -- Fiction; Love stories
Of course! Those flowers ought to have been thought “too precious” to
share with anybody. Smithie would never think of giving one of her
“boy’s” violets away. Dear me, I thought, what an added bore, having to
remember to keep up the correctly sentimental attitude about every trifle
of this kind.... _Ah!_
I broke off what I was thinking at that moment with quite a sudden start.
For, just as she turned away, I had caught Miss Smith’s glance at that
cluster of fresh, crimson carnations. It might have been a bunch of
withered wall-flowers that had been left too long in water, for the
disgusted wrinkle that lifted the prettiest typist’s small, powdered nose.
“_I_ wouldn’t touch them,” it seemed to say.
“Not _those_ flowers.” ...
And at last I saw why.
The reason my three colleagues had forborne to question, or chaff, or
even look at me when I came in from that expedition with the Governor was
_not_ because they were too considerate, too puzzled, or too wily.
It was merely because they were shocked—scandalized!
They were thinking worse things of me than I thought I saw behind Lady
Vandeleur’s lifted lorgnette. I found myself suspected—probably more
than suspected!—of having run counter to the standards of a class which
is perhaps more innately virtuous than Lady Vandeleur’s and my own and
Cicely’s, and certainly more rigid in its judgments. I remembered gossip
about typists and their employers, gossip from the days when I was taking
my training at Pitman’s. And out of this I could imagine for myself the
tone of the talk about me that had passed across that marble-topped table
in the “Den of Lyons” at lunch-time.
“Well, Still Waters have been running deep, with a vengeance! This is the
meaning of her taking down his letters for a whole fortnight—_without any
complaints_, girls! We might have seen there was something funny in that!”
“She’s been pretty artful, too, not letting on that there was anything
at all, until to-day!—And there must have been some sort of beginning. A
girl’s boss doesn’t take her out to a swagger lunch, with flowers and a
new hat and all, without there’s been some sort of a leading up to it!”
Perhaps Miss Robinson might suggest—“Well, I should never have thought
she’d been that kind of girl. Fact of the matter is, I suppose she funked
losing her job if she didn’t.”
But Smithie and Miss Holt would chorus vehemently, “She ought to have
lost her job, first! I would!—And chance it!”
Yes; according to this jury of maidens, I was already pronounced
“_Guilty_.”
And, innocent as I was of anything they would have thought “mattered” in
the least—for I don’t think the keeping-up of a false engagement would
have outraged their conventions at all in comparison—I felt myself turn
hot and cold with shame over the false position.
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