She walked over to my father, who sat with his head in his hands, stoned with sadness. “Zalmon!” she sobbed. “The blood from under my nails I’ll give away, only my child should have a chance to marry herself well. I’ll give away my candlesticks--” Even my brother Yosef’s eyes filled with tears, so he quick jumped up and began to whistle and move around. “You don’t have to sell them,” he cried, trying to make it light in the air. “You can pawn them by Moisheh Itzek, the usurer, and as soon as Sara Reisel will get herself married, she’ll send us the money to get them out again, and we’ll yet live to take them over with us to America.” I never saw my father look so sad. He looked like a man from whom the life is bleeding away. “I’ll not stand myself against your happiness,” he said, in a still voice. “I only hope this will be to your luck and that you’ll get married quick, so we could take out the Saifer Torah from the pawn.” In less than a week the Saifer Torah and the candlesticks were pawned and the ticket bought. The whole village was ringing with the news that I am going to America. When I walked in the street people pointed on me with their fingers as if I were no more the same Sara Reisel. Everybody asked me different questions. “Tell me how it feels to go to America? Can you yet sleep nights like other people?” “When you’ll marry yourself in America, will you yet remember us?” God from the world! That last Friday night before I went to America! Maybe it is the last time we are together was in everybody’s eyes. Everything that happened seemed so different from all other times. I felt I was getting ready to tear my life out from my body. Without the Saifer Torah the house was dark and empty. The sun, the sky, the whole heaven shined from that Holy Book on the wall, and when it was taken out it left an aching emptiness on the heart, as if something beautiful passed out of our lives. I yet see before me my father in the Rabbi’s cap, with eyes that look far away into things; the way he sang the prayer over the wine when he passed around the glass for every one to give a sip. The tears rolled out from my little sister’s eyes down her cheeks and fell into the wine. On that my mother, who was all the time wiping her tears, burst out crying. “Shah! Shah!” commanded my father, rising up from his chair and beginning to walk around the room. “It’s Sabbath night, when every Jew should be happy. Is this the way you give honor to God on His one day that He set aside for you?” On the next day, that was Sabbath, father as if held us up in his hands, and everybody behaved himself. A stranger coming in couldn’t see anything that was going on, except that we walked so still and each one by himself, as if somebody dying was in the air over us.