“Yes, I know,” she replied; uttering the words with a sense of the
situation far deeper than any pretence of not fitting his allusion. She
immediately felt him surprised and even a little puzzled at her frank
assent; but for herself the trouble she had taken could only, in these
fleeting minutes—they would probably never come back—be all there like
a little hoard of gold in her lap. Certainly he might look at it,
handle it, take up the pieces. Yet if he understood anything he must
understand all. “I consider you’ve already immensely thanked me.” The
horror was back upon her of having seemed to hang about for some
reward. “It’s awfully odd you should have been there just the one
time—!”
“The one time you’ve passed my place?”
“Yes; you can fancy I haven’t many minutes to waste. There was a place
to-night I had to stop at.”
“I see, I see—” he knew already so much about her work. “It must be an
awful grind—for a lady.”
“It is, but I don’t think I groan over it any more than my
companions—and you’ve seen _they’re_ not ladies!” She mildly jested,
but with an intention. “One gets used to things, and there are
employments I should have hated much more.” She had the finest
conception of the beauty of not at least boring him. To whine, to count
up her wrongs, was what a barmaid or a shop-girl would do, and it was
quite enough to sit there like one of these.
“If you had had another employment,” he remarked after a moment, “we
might never have become acquainted.”
“It’s highly probable—and certainly not in the same way.” Then, still
with her heap of gold in her lap and something of the pride of it in
her manner of holding her head, she continued not to move—she only
smiled at him. The evening had thickened now; the scattered lamps were
red; the Park, all before them, was full of obscure and ambiguous life;
there were other couples on other benches whom it was impossible not to
see, yet at whom it was impossible to look. “But I’ve walked so much
out of my way with you only just to show you that—that”—with this she
paused; it was not after all so easy to express—“that anything you may
have thought is perfectly true.”
“Oh I’ve thought a tremendous lot!” her companion laughed. “Do you mind
my smoking?”
“Why should I? You always smoke _there_.”
“At your place? Oh yes, but here it’s different.”
“No,” she said as he lighted a cigarette, “that’s just what it isn’t.
It’s quite the same.”
“Well, then, that’s because ‘there’ it’s so wonderful!”
“Then you’re conscious of how wonderful it is?” she returned.
He jerked his handsome head in literal protest at a doubt. “Why that’s
exactly what I mean by my gratitude for all your trouble. It has been
just as if you took a particular interest.” She only looked at him by
way of answer in such sudden headlong embarrassment, as she was quite
aware, that while she remained silent he showed himself checked by her
expression. “You _have_—haven’t you?—taken a particular interest?”
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