When the widow entered, it grew somewhat silent. The appearance of that
mysterious figure always produced an impression. Of stature a little
more than medium, slender; she had a long face, bright blond hair, and
dark eyes; her shoulders and bosom were rather slight, but she had the
round plumpness of maiden forms; a forehead thrown back in a way
scarcely discernible. She was pensive, and as dignified as if of marble.
Her eyes, deeply set beneath her forehead, as it were in a shadow, were
pencilled above with one delicate arch of brow. Those eyes were
marvellous, steel-colored; they gleamed like polished metal, but that
was a genuine light of steel. It was light and nothing more; under the
glitter warmth and depth of thought were lacking. One might have said of
those eyes, "They look, but they see not." They gave no idea of an
object, they only reflected it. They were cold beyond description; we
will add that their lids almost never blinked, but the pupils possessed
a certain movement as if investigating, inquiring, seeking; still the
movement was mechanical.
The rest of the widow's face answered to her eyes. Her mouth was pressed
downward a little, as might be the case in a statue; the complexion
monotonous, dull, pale, had a swarthy tinge. She was neither very
charming nor very beautiful; she was accurately pretty.
This in the woman was wonderful, that though her face was torpid
apparently, she had in her whole person something which attracted the
masculine side of human nature inexplicably. In that lay her charm. She
was statuesque to the highest degree, but to the highest degree also a
woman. She attracted and also repelled. Gustav felt this best. It was
difficult to reconcile with that cold torpor the impression which she
produced, which seemed as it were not of her, but aside from her.
She was like a sleeping flower; pain had so put her to sleep. In
reality the blows which she had received were like strokes of an axe on
the head. Let us remember that in the career of the woman brief moments
of happiness were closed by two coffins. As a maiden she had loved; he
whom she had loved was no longer alive. As a wife she had given birth to
a child; the child was dead. That which law had given her, which had
been the cause and effect of her life, had vanished. Thenceforth she
ceased to live, she only existed. Imagine a plant which is cut at the
top and the root; such was Helena. Torn from the past and debarred from
the future, at first she bore within her a dim belief that a shameful
injustice had been wrought on her. At the moment of her pain she threw
out, it is difficult to know at whom, this question, as unfathomable as
the bottomless pit: Why has this happened? No answer came from the blue
firmament, or the earth, or the fields, or the forest; the injustice
remained injustice. The sun shone and the birds sang on as before. Then
that unfortunate heart withdrew into itself with its own pain and became
deadened.
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