France -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- France -- Fiction
that she knew nothing about such things, and Raymon, intoxicated with
joy to see her cheeks flush and her bosom heave, swore inwardly that he
would teach her.
Indiana slept less that night than she had done for the last two or
three nights; as we have said, she had never been in love, and her heart
had long been ripe for a sentiment which none of the men she had met
hitherto had succeeded in arousing. She had been brought up by a father
of an eccentric and violent character, and had never known the happiness
which is derived from the affection of another person. Monsieur de
Carvajal, drunk with political passions, consumed by ambitious regrets,
had become the most cruel planter and the most disagreeable neighbor in
the colonies; his daughter had suffered keenly from his detestable
humor. But, by dint of watching the constant tableau of the evils of
slavery, of enduring the weariness of solitude and dependence, she had
acquired a superficial patience, proof against every trial, an adorable
kindliness toward her inferiors, but also an iron will and an
incalculable power of resistance to everything that tended to oppress
her. By marrying Delmare she simply changed masters; by coming to live
at Lagny, she changed her prison and the locus of her solitude. She did
not love her husband, perhaps for the very reason that she was told that
it was her duty to love him, and that it had become with her a sort of
second nature, a principle of conduct, a law of conscience, to resist
mentally every sort of moral constraint. No one had attempted to point
out to her any other law than that of blind obedience.
Brought up in the desert, neglected by her father, surrounded by slaves,
to whom she could offer no other assistance or encouragement than her
compassion and her tears, she had accustomed herself to say: "A day will
come when everything in my life will be changed, when I shall do good to
others, when some one will love me, when I shall give my whole heart to
the man who gives me his; meanwhile, I will suffer in silence and keep
my love as a reward for him who shall set me free." This liberator, this
Messiah had not come; Indiana was still awaiting him. She no longer
dared, it is true, to confess to herself her whole thought. She had
realized under the clipped hedge-rows of Lagny that thought itself was
more fettered there than under the wild palms of Ile Bourbon; and when
she caught herself saying, as she used to say: "A day will come--a man
will come"--she forced that rash longing back to the depths of her
heart, and said to herself: "Death alone will bring that day!"
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