was now her study as it had been his,--the heavy oak table had a great
pewter inkstand upon it and a few loose sheets of paper with two or
three quill pens ready to hand,--some quaint old vellum-bound volumes
and a brown earthenware bowl full of "Glory" roses were set just where
they could catch the morning sunshine through the lattice window. One
side of the room was lined with loaded bookshelves, and at its furthest
end a wide arch of roughly hewn oak disclosed a smaller apartment where
she slept. Here there was a quaint little four-poster bedstead, hung
with quite priceless Jacobean tapestry, and a still more rare and
beautiful work of art--an early Italian mirror, full length and framed
in silver, a curio worth many hundreds of pounds. In this mirror
Innocent had surveyed herself with more or less disfavour since her
infancy. It was a mirror that had always been there--a mirror in which
the wife of the Sieur Amadis must have often gazed upon her own
reflection, and in which, after her, all the wives and daughters of the
succeeding Jocelyns had seen their charms presented to their own
admiration. The two old dower-chests which had been found in the upper
chamber were placed on either side of the mirror, and held all the
simple home-made garments which were Innocent's only wear. A special
joy of hers lay in the fact that she knew the management of the secret
sliding panel, and that she could at her own pleasure slip up the
mysterious stairway with a book and be thus removed from all the
household in a solitude which to her was ideal. To-night as she
wandered up and down her room like a little distraught ghost, all the
happy and romantic associations of the home she had loved and cherished
for so many years seemed cut down like a sheaf of fair blossoms by a
careless reaper,--a sordid and miserable taint was on her life, and she
shuddered with mingled fear and grief as she realised that she had not
even the simple privilege of ordinary baptism. She was a nameless waif,
dependent on the charity of Farmer Jocelyn. True, the old man had grown
to love her and she had loved him--ah!--let the many tender prayers
offered up for him in this very room bear witness before the throne of
God to her devotion to her "father" as she had thought him! And now--if
what the doctors said was true--if he was soon to die--what would
become of her? She wrung her little hands in unconscious agony.
"What shall I do?" she murmured, sobbingly--"I have no claim on him, or
on anyone in the world! Dear God, what shall I do?"
Her restless walk up and down took her into her sleeping-chamber, and
there she lit a candle and looked at herself in the old Italian mirror.
A little woe-begone creature gazed sorrowfully back at her from its
shining surface, with brimming eyes and quivering lips, and hair all
tossed loosely away from a small sad face as pale as a watery moon, and
she drew back from her own reflection with a gesture of repugnance.
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