My battery. Of course, the moment had arrived when I must turn it
off. I glanced down at it. A shadowy, unreal, phantom battery lying
beside me; my grey hand resting upon it seemed to my vision far more
ponderable. And then I received my first real perception as to the
nature of this change. My fingers groped for the switch, found it. But
this shadow battery, of which even then I was dimly contemptuous,
was solid beyond all solidity of which I had ever formed conception.
My fingers fumbling with it--dulled as were my physical sensations, I
could feel those fingers groping as though the adamant steel of that
switch were _penetrating them_. A feeling indescribable--uncanny,
morbidly horrible, though the incident was so brief the horror scarce
had time to reach my confused consciousness. My fingers, not the
battery, were shadow--half-ponderable fingers, feeling their way
_within the solid steel_ of that tiny switch. For a terrifying instant
I thought I could not move it. Then--it moved; the current was off.
I sank back, exhausted of spirit with the effort. But at once Will's
voice aroused me.
"Disconnect the wires. Can you do it, Rob? Quickly--or it will be too
late."
I fumbled for the wires; cast them off--gigantic cables they might have
been to the futile wraiths of my fingers. Will helped me, I think; and
at last I was free, lying back upon the mattress. Dimly I could feel it
beneath me, my thrilling, vibrating body resting upon it as though I
were a feather newly drifted down.
Moments passed; I do not know how long, I could not have told for my
thoughts were winging away unfettered, untrammelled as in a dream....
A dream ... the past, the present--all of it savoured of a vaguely
pleasant unreality.
And presently I realized that I was moving; my body--could I indeed
call this vanished consciousness of the physical, a body?--my _being_
was floating, drifting gently downward, I could no longer feel the
mattress; I saw it--a blurred, grey, transparent shadow, coming upward.
Beside me, _within me_; then over me as I sank through it a foot or
two and came to rest.
Beneath me now, there was a dull sensation. I could feel myself lying
upon something apparently solid. Feel it? The feeling was barely
physical; rather was it a mere knowledge that I was lying there.
I tried to keep my scattering thoughts together. It was an effort
to hold them--an effort to think coherently; an effort to cling to
anything--even mental--of reality. I told myself that the change must
be nearly complete. _I_ was the spectre; this phantom mattress, this
wraith of a room--those ghost-like chairs and table floating in space
above me--that was my own real world, lost and gone.
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