I turned to regard him and Bee--these spectres like myself, sitting
beside me. What did I see? What was their aspect to this new mind's
eye which was mine? I cannot say. I think now that my intelligence saw
the intelligence which was theirs, and clothed it out of habit with a
semblance of substance for a body--familiar of outline and form since
there was no other aspect I could conceive. I saw--or thought I saw,
which perhaps is quite the same--luminous grey ghosts of my companions
as last I had seen them. Of themselves they appeared not transparent.
Through them the spectral walls of the room were not visible; of
everything around me, the bodies of my friends seemed the most real.
Will was smiling at me reassuringly. Bee's gaze was affectionate. Their
voices, save that I knew I heard no sound, seemed not abnormal. I
spoke. It was like thinking words with moving lips. But they heard me;
not to read my lips, but to hear my thoughts. Heard with a result quite
normal, for they nodded and smiled and answered me.
* * * * *
Then Will touched me; experimentally with a smile, he laid his hand
upon my arm. It was not unreal, save that only dimly, as though my
senses were dulled, could I feel him. Yet there was a _weight_ to his
grip. His tenuous ghostly fingers (as I would have counted them in
my former state) were not ghostly of grip to me now. His fingers, my
arm, were identical of substance. His fingers could not occupy the
space with me; they were ponderable, real, with a dulled reality which
gave me at last something to cling to; brought my scattering thoughts
together. I was here--Robert Manse; alive--living, breathing--sitting
beside my friends. From that moment a measure of the strangeness left
me and took to itself the externals only. _I_ was real; Bee and Will
were real; it was only the things around us which were strange. The
body which momentarily I seemed to have lost, was restored to me. A
sense of the physical; dulled of perception, but still a body to house
my mind. To house it--yet not to hold it firmly. A body which now was
not a prison; shackles fallen away. Yet there was a danger to that.
Already I had tasted of it--for the mind, too free, is difficult to
control.
I was saying, "I'm--all right.... I was dreaming--I got confused."
Bee said whimsically, "We're here. Will, there is so much I want to ask
you--"
"Not now, Bee." His voice was full of its old decisiveness. "We must
start. Keep together--you understand now, Rob, what I meant. Keep
together--keep thinking, firmly, what you are doing. And do--what I do.
We must start."
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