She looked at him with weary surprise, prepared to put him back in his
proper place. But she must have seen again something of the magic crown
about the boy’s head, for she had patience with him. He meant nothing.
He had to talk as he did. He was not like others.
“Ah,” she said, indifferently, “there are not so many, Petter Nord.
There has hardly been any one in earnest.”
But now there came another turn to his advantage. In her suddenly awoke
the eager hunger of a sick person for compassion. She longed for the
tenderness, the pity that the poor workman could give her. She felt the
need of being near that deep, disinterested sympathy. The sick cannot
have enough of it. She wished to read it in his glance and his whole
being. Words meant nothing to her.
“I like to see you here,” she said. “Sit here for a while, and tell me
what you have been doing these six years!”
While he talked, she lay and drew in the indescribable something which
passed between them. She heard and yet she did not hear. But by some
strange sympathy she felt herself strengthened and vivified.
Nevertheless she did get one impression from his story. It took her
into the workman’s quarter, into a new world, full of tumultuous hopes
and strength. How they longed and trusted! How they hated and suffered!
“How happy the oppressed are,” she said.
It occurred to her, with a longing for life, that there might be
something for her there, she who always needed oppression and
compulsion to make life worth living.
“If I were well,” she said, “perhaps I would have gone there with you.
I should enjoy working my way up with some one I liked.”
Petter Nord started. Here was the confession that he had been waiting
for the whole time. “Oh, can you not live!” he prayed. And he beamed
with happiness.
She became observant. “That is love,” she said to herself. “And now he
believes that I am also in love. What madness, that Värmland boy!”
She wished to bring him back to reason, but there was something in
Petter Nord on that day of victory that restrained her. She had not the
heart to spoil his happy mood. She felt compassion for his foolishness
and let him live in it. “It does not matter, as I am to die so soon,”
she said to herself.
But she sent him away soon after, and when he asked if he might not
come again, she forbade him absolutely. “But,” she said, “do you
remember our graveyard up on the hill, Petter Nord. You can come there
in a few weeks and thank death for that day.”
As Petter Nord came out of the garden, he met Halfvorson. He was
walking forward and back in despair, and his only consolation was the
thought that Edith was laying the burden of remorse on the wrong-doer.
To see him overpowered by pangs of conscience, for that alone had he
sought him out. But when he met the young workman, he saw that Edith
had not told him everything. He was serious, but at the same time he
certainly was madly happy.
“Has Edith told you why she is dying?” said Halfvorson.
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