Presently, among other things, he went on to speak of the private
misgivings with which Napoleon’s character inspired him: “Between
ourselves, Lebzeltern, I am convinced that Napoleon is not in good
faith when he says that he wishes to become reconciled with me.... If
only he would let me have some one here, at Savona, to help me in my
work, which is really and truly overwhelming; moreover, there is a vast
amount of specialist and technical business which I cannot possibly
transact by myself without consulting my expert advisers. And, to make
matters worse for me, my health and my eyesight are giving out; I do
not feel that I shall be able to carry my burden of solitary labour
very much longer; besides, it is bad for my temper, which I confess,
frankly, I often have great difficulty in curbing.”
Nor is there anything wonderful in this when one remembers the
Pope’s situation after being imprisoned nearly a year in the house
of the Bishop of Savona, shut off from the Cardinals (of whom the
only news he had was that they had been imprisoned and maltreated
in French fortresses by order of Napoleon) and from the faithful.
Alone with his doubts and difficulties and age and ill-health; and
the insidious temptations put before him by the Emperor’s instruments
(conscious, some of these, as was Fesch; unconscious, again, as was
Lebzeltern)—what is there astonishing or blamable in this “great
difficulty” so well and simply confessed by the most benignantly human
Barnabo Chiaramonte?
Presently he spoke again, to utter a final warning to Napoleon:
“If Napoleon continues to make war upon religion (even although
he does so under the guise of extending to it his hypocritical
perfidious protection); if he attempts to have me dragged to
Paris; if he goes on spreading the lie of my sacrificing the
real interests of the Church to secondary matters and to worldly
motives; if he persists in forcing me to more active reprisals,
then—I shall have to use the last weapons that remain to me and
which would make a stir in the world that he does not yet dream
of. The only regret I should have in that case would be that some
others—who have been less unkind to me than he—might suffer, too.
As to the precise nature of those weapons, it is possible that
their effect might be very different from anything you could
imagine. But, make your mind easy; have no fear that I shall
employ them unless I am absolutely obliged to do so. Do not be
afraid of my doing anything precipitately, for I pray constantly
for grace and strength sufficient to enable me to carry my cross
patiently. But if you only knew the unvarying torment of my
nights as well as of my days, Lebzeltern—the unceasing anguish of
my solitude—you would not wonder at what must sometimes appear to
you incomprehensible inconsistencies in my attitude towards many
things—as must have been noticeable in the talks between us!”
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