when you said that my voice reminded you of a woman who was dear to
you, and who was dead. It was easy to supply the blank spaces in the
story to make it complete--shamefully, miserably complete. Your clerk
told me that the life you had lived in that town was not a respectable
one: I did not ask him how he had gained his knowledge, but I was sure
of its truth. You left that town, and came to this place, a complete
stranger, knowing no one, known by none. You refused to speak of your
past life; not a word had ever passed your lips with reference to it.
What other confirmation was needed of the truth of your clerk's
statements? You tried to blot out your past career, knowing that it
would not bear the light, and that the good name and position you had
gained would be sullied and lost if the particulars were made public.
You deserted the woman who had been your companion, and when you were
inadvertently betrayed into remembrance of her by the sound of my
voice, you told me she was dead. You never mentioned her again, nor
did I, for I had forgotten her. But see how hard it is to lead a life
of hypocrisy, as you have done! Shame never dies, nor can it ever be
completely wiped away. After years of sojourn here, when you had
gained money, position and a good name--when you had position, a
simple, ignorant, and innocently-vain girl to your heart, and had
sworn to cherish and protect her--this woman tracks you, finds you,
and appeals to you by the remembrance of old times, and perhaps by
other arguments more powerful, of which I am ignorant. On the very
evening she meets you, you take her to a house in the town, and
provide lodgings for her, and from that time your visits are frequent.
Is this part of your story complete, and need I add to it by saying
that you mentioned not a word concerning the woman to the wife you
professed to love? If there was no shame in the relations that existed
between you and her, why should you have taken such pains to conceal
them? On the day you deserted me, you told me you were ruined, and you
adopted the miserable subterfuge of saying that you had discovered
all, and that you could no longer live with me. Your meaning was plain
enough. You implied that I was false to you and to the vows I had
taken on the day we were married. A more wicked lie never poisoned the
heart of man or woman. I had brought shame and disgrace upon you, you
said, and that it was useless my sending after you. I have read this
letter often--it is destroyed now; I burnt it lest one who is dearer
to me than my heart's blood should see it--and I have wondered at my
folly and credulity in ever, for one moment, believing you to be a
good and just man. For I did believe you to be this. There was a time
in my life when I set you up as a model of honour and integrity and
truth. The last words of your letter are burnt into my heart. Do you
remember them? 'If I could make you a free woman, so that you might
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