Conduct of life -- Fiction; Fantasy fiction; Parables
Her face as she played betrayed no great emotion. The brightness in her
eyes spoke more of mental activity and retrospection than of sentiment.
Gradually the listener’s eyes fell on the furniture around. Much of it,
in conjunction with the rest of the house, was of polished oak, carved
finely and curiously. Opposite there was a cabinet museum about the
height of a man, and above it the carved head of some idolater’s god,
growing in clearness as she became accustomed to the light
But surely the music had affected it. Its ugly eyes, protruding and rid
of all intelligence, altered slowly to expression almost human. For
every quivering note struck from the violin found a resting-place within
these staring orbs, filling them both with misery. Their dumb speech was
terrible, but when Rosalie moved away, more ghastly still by reason of
their persistence. She looked away. There on the floor beside her was a
tiger-skin, a rug of worth and beauty, with a head and glassy eyes. Its
eyes met hers. Their dumb misery told a tale beyond the power of speech.
Shivering, she turned and moved away.
When would Mariana stop and take her from this wretched room? She had
moved within range of the statues, those dim, misty forms of whiteness
which rose like ghosts with out and upstretched arms to beckon her.
Faces of cold, white, and deathly beauty, and eyes! Oh, terrible! all
gazing into hers with that sad gaze and straining misery, reaching to
the height and depth of agony.
It was enough. Had they but wailed, or cried, or uttered sound, the
spell had broken. But here was silence—ghastly, terrible, because so
secret and so unexpected.
At last the tension reached a limit. On all sides Rosalie encountered
ghastly faces of long-suffering pain to which the music seemed to form a
fitting background. Turning hurriedly to escape one face belonging to a
child, set in a picture hung upon the wall, her glance fell by chance
upon the mirror and revealed herself, strained horror in her eyes, with
blanched cheeks and open lips. She scarcely recognised who stood there.
It was enough. She crossed the room half running, and clutched Mariana’s
arm.
“How much longer?”
“The time is up. Alas! how quickly it has passed. Never again till next
week, and then but two short hours. And yet you ask me, ‘How much
longer?’”
“Can you play like that, and never feel it?”
Mariana shook her head.
“It’s the only time I ever feel, the only time I ever live.”
“But it is pain and sorrow.”
“Better than emptiness. Now I have lost the only thing I love. All week
it lies quite mute, a thing of idleness, bursting with life. And when I
take it up it utters so long a wail, so sad a sigh, that my heart
returns to it, and we weep together till pain becomes an ecstasy and
sadness joy.”
“Oh, Mariana! what a life is yours!”
“No different from the rest. A life of grey to-morrows that come and go
in endless twilight.”
“Will you feel like this to-morrow?”
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