East Anglia (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“How, Mr. Rock,” she asked, rising and standing before him,
“how can you ask me to marry you, for I suppose that is what you mean,
when you throw my poverty—and the rest—in my teeth? I think, Mr.
Rock, that you would do well to go back to Mrs. Morton, or the minister’s
widow who was born a lady, and to leave me in peace.”
“Oh, don’t be angry with me,” he said, with something like a
groan; “you know that I did not mean to offend you. Why should I offend
you when I love you so, and want to win you? I wish that I had bitten out my
tongue before I said that, but it slipped in with the rest. Will you have me,
Joan? Look here: you are the first that ever I said a sweet word to, and that
ought to go some way with a woman; and I would make you a good husband. There
isn’t much that you shall want for if you marry me, Joan. If any one had
told me when I was a youngster that I should live to go begging and craving
after a woman in this fashion, I’d have said he lied; but you have put me
off, and pushed me aside, and given me the slip, till at length you have worked
me up to this, and I can’t live without you—I can’t live
without you, that’s the truth.”
“But I am afraid you will have to, Mr. Rock,” said Joan more
gently, for the tears which trembled in Samuel’s light blue eyes touched
her somewhat; and after all, although he repelled her, it was flattering that
any man should value her so highly: “I do not love you.”
His chin dropped upon his breast dejectedly. Presently he looked up and spoke
again.
“I did not expect that you would,” he said: “it had been too
much luck for a miserable sinner. But be honest with me, Joan—if a woman
can—and tell me, do you love anybody else?”
“Not a soul,” she answered, opening her brown eyes wide. “Who
is there that I should love here?”
“Ah! that’s it,” he answered, with a sigh of relief:
“there is nobody good enough for you in these parts. You are a lady,
however you were born, and you want to mate with your own sort. It is no use
denying it: I have watched you, and I’ve seen how you look down upon us;
and all I’ve got to say is:—Be careful that it does not bring you
into trouble. Still, while you don’t love anybody else—and the man
you do love had better keep out of my way, curse him!—there is hope for
me. Look here, Joan: I don’t want to press you—take time to think
it over. I’m in no hurry. I could wait five years if I were sure of
getting you at last. I dare say I frightened you by my roughness: I was a fool;
I should have remembered that it is all new to you, though it is old enough for
me. Listen, Joan: tell me that I may wait awhile and come again,—though,
whether you tell me or not, I shall wait and I shall come, while there is
breath in my body and I can find you out.”
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