I had known during my fifteen years of existence under heavy English
skies.
LeVallon knew this inner world far better and more intimately than
I did. He lived in it. Motfield Close, the private school among
the Kentish hills, was merely for him a place where his present
brain and body--instruments of his soul--were acquiring the current
knowledge of To-day. It was but temporary. He himself, the eternal
self that persisted through all the series of lives, was in quest
of other things, “real knowledge,” as he called it. For this reason
the recollection of his past, these “Other Places,” was of paramount
importance, since it enabled him to see where he had missed the central
trail and turned aside to lesser pursuits that had caused delay. He was
forever seeking to recover vanished clues, to pick them up again, and
to continue the main journey with myself and, eventually, with--one
other.
“I’ve always been after those things,” he used to say, “and I’m
searching, searching always--inside myself, for the old forgotten
way. We were together, you and I, so your coming back like this will
help----”
I interrupted, caught by an inexplicable dread that he would mention
another person too. I said the first thing that came into my head.
Instinctively the words came, yet right words:
“But my outside is different now. How could you know? My face and body,
I mean----?”
“Of course,” he smiled; “but I knew you instantly. I shall never forget
that day. I felt it at once--all over me. I had often dreamed about
you,” he added after a moment’s pause, “but that was no good, because
you didn’t dream with me.” He looked hard into my eyes. “We’ve a lot
to do together, you know,” he said gravely, “a lot of things to put
right--one thing, one big thing in particular--when the time comes.
Whatever happens, we mustn’t drift apart again. We shan’t.”
Another minute and I knew he would speak of “her.” It was strange, this
sense of shrinking that particular picture brought. Never, except in
sleep occasionally, had it returned to me, and I think it was my dread
that kept it out of sight. Yet Julius just then did not touch the topic
that caused my heart to sink.
“I must be off,” he exclaimed a moment later. “There’s ‘stinks’ to mug
up, and I haven’t looked at it. I shan’t know a blessed word!” For the
chemistry, known to the boys by this shorter yet appropriate name, was
a constant worry to him. He was learning it for the first time, he
found it difficult. But he was a boy, a schoolboy, and he talked like
one.
He never doubted for one instant that I was not wholly with him. He
assumed that I knew and remembered, though less successfully, and that
we merely resumed an interrupted journey. Pre-existence was as natural
to him as that a certain man and woman had provided his returning
soul with the means of physical expression, termed body. His soul
remembered; he, therefore, could not doubt. It was innate conviction,
not acquired theory.
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