I recalled the last time I had seen him, waiting on the school platform
as the train went out, and I realised that there were changes in him
that left me standing still, as it were. Perhaps he caught my thought,
for his face took on a touch of sadness; he gazed into my eyes, making
room for me beside him on the bench. “But you’ve been dawdling on the
way a bit,” he added. “You’ve been after other things, I see.”
It was true enough. I had fallen in love, for one thing, besides
devoting myself with the ardour of youth to literature, music, sport,
and other normal interests of my age. From his point of view, of
course, I had not advanced, whereas he obviously had held steadily
to the path he had chosen for himself, following always one main
thing--this star in the east of his higher knowledge. His attitude
to me, I felt moreover, had undergone a change. The old sympathy and
affection had not altered, but a strain of pity had crept in, a regret
that I suffered the attractions of the world to interfere with my
development.
A delay, as he called it, in our relationship there had certainly been,
though the instant we met I realised that something bound us together
fundamentally with a power that superficial changes or external
separation could never wholly dissolve.
Yet, on the whole, I saw little enough of him during these Edinburgh
days, far less certainly than at Motfield Close. I was older, for one
thing, more of the world for another. As a boy, of course, the idea
that we renewed an eternal friendship, faithful to one another through
so many centuries, made a romantic appeal that was considerable. But
the glamour had evaporated; I was a man now, I considered, busy with
the things of men. At the same time I was aware that these other
tendencies were by no means dead in me, and that very little would be
required to revive them. Buried by other interests, they were yet ready
to assert themselves again.
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