Kenelm Chillingly — Volume 08Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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Kenelm Chillingly — Volume 08
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
remember how plaintively, and yet how proudly, she, so nobly born, so
luxuriously nurtured, clasping my hand when I ventured to remonstrate,
and say that her own family could not condemn her child because of the
father's guilt,--she, the proudest woman I ever knew, she whose smile
I can at rare moments detect in Lily, raised her head from her pillow,
and gasped forth,--
"I am dying: the last words of the dying are commands. I command you
to see that my child's lot is not that of a felon's daughter
transported to the hearth of nobles. To be happy, her lot must be
humble: no roof too humble to shelter, no husband too humble to wed,
the felon's daughter."
From that hour I formed a resolve that I would keep hand and heart
free, that when the grandchild of my princely benefactor grew up into
womanhood I might say to her, "I am humbly born, but thy mother would
have given thee to me." The newborn, consigned to our charge, has now
ripened into woman, and I have now so assured my fortune that it is no
longer poverty and struggle that I should ask her to share. I am
conscious that, were her fate not so exceptional, this hope of mine
would be a vain presumption,--conscious that I am but the creature of
her grandsire's bounty, and that from it springs all I ever can
be,--conscious of the disparity in years,-conscious of many a past
error and present fault. But, as fate so ordains, such considerations
are trivial; I am her rightful choice. What other choice, compatible
with these necessities which weigh, dear and honoured friend,
immeasurably more on your sense of honour than they do upon mine? and
yet mine is not dull. Granting, then, that you, her nearest and most
responsible relative, do not contemn me for presumption, all else
seems to me clear. Lily's childlike affection for me is too deep and
too fond not to warm into a wife's love. Happily, too, she has not
been reared in the stereotyped boarding-school shallowness of
knowledge and vulgarities of gentility; but educated, like myself, by
the free influences of Nature, longing for no halls and palaces save
those that we build as we list, in fairyland; educated to comprehend
and share the fancies which are more than booklore to the worshipper
of art and song. In a day or two, perhaps the day after you receive
this, I shall be able to escape from London, and most likely shall
come on foot as usual. How I long to see once more the woodbine on
the hedgerows, the green blades of the cornfields, the sunny lapse of
the river, and dearer still the tiny falls of our own little noisy
rill! Meanwhile I entreat you, dearest, gentlest, most honored of
such few friends as my life has hitherto won to itself, to consider
well the direct purport of this letter. If you, born in a grade so
much higher than mine, feel that it is unwarrantable insolence in me
to aspire to the hand of my patron's grandchild, say so plainly; and I
remain not less grateful for your friendship than I was to your
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