Death -- Fiction; Friendship -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
“Oh, she noticed after a time. She began to be uncomfortable. I—withdrew
myself, as it were. You know my way. She didn’t like that. She tried—I
will say that for her—she did try to direct the conversation towards my
subjects. Useless, of course. He was, not illiterate—no, you can’t say
illiterate—but curiously unintellectual. Socialism now—somehow we got on
to socialism. That roused him. I must say, though he expressed himself
clumsily, that he had ideas. But so limited. He had never heard of Marx.
Bernard Shaw was barely a name to him. Socialism—his socialism—when we
disentangled it, was only another word for the proper feeding of the
local infants—drains—measles—the village schools. Beyond that he was
mute. But Madala chimed in with details of American slum life, and
roused him at once. They grew quite eloquent. But not one word, if you
please, of her own work. Anything and everything but her work. He did
ask her what she was doing. ‘Oh,’ said she in an offhand way, ‘I
scribble. Stories.’ And then—‘It earns money, and it kills time.’ Yes,
that’s exactly how she put it. ‘Madala!’ I said, ‘that’s not the
spirit—’ I’d never heard her use such a tone before. She had such high
ideals of art. It jarred me. I thought that she ought to have known
better. But she looked at me in such a curious way—defiant almost. She
said—‘It’s my own spirit, Nita. Oh, let me have a holiday!’ And at that
up she jumped and left us sitting there, and wandered off to the stile
and was over it in a second. We sat still. The hedge hid her. Then we
heard her call—‘Cowslips! Oh, cowslips!’ I thought he would go when she
called, but he sat where he was, listening. It was one of those hot,
still days, you know. There was a sort of spell on things. There were
bees about. We heard a cart roll up the road. I wanted to get up and
talk, make some kind of diversion, and yet I couldn’t. We heard her call
again—‘Hundreds of cowslips! I’m going to make a cowslip ball.’ Her
voice sounded far away, but very clear. And there was a scent of may in
the air, and dust—an intoxicating smell. It made me quite sleepy. It was
just as if time stood still. Three o’clock’s a drowsy time, I suppose.
And he never stirred—just sat there stupidly. But I was too sleepy to be
bored with him. Presently back she came. She had picked up her skirt and
her petticoat showed—it was that lavender silk you gave her, Lila. So
unsuitable, you know, on those dirty roads. And her skirt was full of
cowslips. She was just a dark figure against the sky until she was close
to us; but then, I thought that she looked pretty, extremely pretty.
Bright cheeks, you know, and her eyes so blue——”
“Grey—” said Mr. Flood, “the grey eyes of a goddess.”
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