England -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Repression (Psychology) -- Fiction; Single women -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
“He doesn’t see anything. He never knows when she’s tired or got a
headache. She’ll drop dead before he’ll see it. He’s utterly selfish,
Miss Frean. Wrapt up in himself and his horrid little ailments. Whatever
happens to Beatie he must have his sweetbread, and his soup at eleven
and his tea at five in the morning..
“... I suppose you think I might help more?”
“Well----” Harriett did think it.
“Well, I just won’t. I won’t encourage Robin. He ought to get her a
proper servant and a man for the garden and the bath chair. I wish you’d
give him a hint. Tell him she isn’t strong. I can’t. She’d snap my head
off. Would you mind?”
Harriett didn’t mind. She didn’t mind what she said. She wouldn’t be
saying it to Robin, but to the contemptible thing that had taken Robin’s
place. She still saw Robin as a young man, with young, shining eyes, who
came rushing to give himself up at once, to make himself known. She had
no affection for this selfish invalid, this weak, peevish bully.
Poor Beatrice. She was sorry for Beatrice. She resented his behavior
to Beatrice. She told herself she wouldn’t be Beatrice, she wouldn’t
be Robin’s wife for the world. Her pity for Beatrice gave her a secret
pleasure and satisfaction.
After dinner she sat out in the garden talking to Robin’s wife, while
Cissy Walker played draughts with Robin in his study, giving Beatrice a
rest from him. They talked about Robin.
“You knew him when he was young, didn’t you? What was he like?”
She didn’t want to tell her. She wanted to keep the young, shining Robin
to herself. She also wanted to show that she had known him, that she had
known a Robin that Beatrice would never know. Therefore she told her.
“My poor Robin.” Beatrice gazed wistfully, trying to see this Robin that
Priscilla had taken from her, that Harriett had known. Then she turned
her back.
“It doesn’t matter. I’ve married the man I wanted.” She let herself go.
“Cissy says I’ve spoiled him. That isn’t true. It was his first wife who
spoiled him. She made a nervous wreck of him.”
“He was devoted to her.”
“Yes. And he’s paying for his devotion now. She wore him out....
Cissy says he’s selfish. If he is, it’s because he’s used up all his
unselfishness. He was living on his moral capital.... I feel as if I
couldn’t do too much for him after what he did. Cissy doesn’t know how
awful his life was with Priscilla. She was the most exacting----”
“She was my friend.”
“Wasn’t Robin your friend, too?”
“Yes. But poor Prissie, she was paralyzed.”
“It wasn’t paralysis.”
“What was it then?”
“Pure hysteria. Robin wasn’t in love with her, and she knew it. She
developed that illness so that she might have a hold on him, get his
attention fastened on her somehow. I don’t say she could help it. She
couldn’t. But that’s what it was.”
“Well, she died of it.”
“No. She died of pneumonia after influenza. I’m not blaming Prissie. She
was pitiable. But he ought never to have married her.”
“I don’t think you ought to say that.”
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