Life in the sick-room : $b EssaysMartineau, Harriet
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Life in the sick-room : $b Essays
Martineau, Harriet
Conduct of life; Sick
The manifestations of sympathetic feeling are as various as of other
feelings; but the differences are marked by those whom they concern,
with a keenness proportioned to the hunger of their heart. The sick man
has even sometimes to assure himself of the grief of his friends, by
their silence to him on circumstances which he cannot but feel most
important. Their letters, extending over months and years, perhaps
contain no mention of his trial, no reference to his condition, not a
line which will show to his executors that the years over which they
spread were years of illness. Though he can account for this suppression
in the very love of his friends, yet it brings no particular consolation
to him. Others, perhaps, administer praise;--praise, which is the last
thing a humbled sufferer can appropriate;--praise of his patience or
fortitude, which perhaps arrives at the moment when his resolution has
wholly given way, and tears may be streaming from his eyes, and
exclamations of anguish bursting from his lips. Such consolations
require forbearance, however it may be mingled with gratitude. Far
different was my emotion, when one said to me, with a face like the face
of an angel, “Why should we be bent upon your being better, and make up
a bright prospect for you? I see no brightness in it; and the time seems
past for expecting you ever to be well.” How my spirits rose in a moment
at this recognition of the truth!
And again--when I was weakly dwelling on a consideration which troubled
me much for some time, that many of my friends gave me credit for far
severer pain than I was enduring, and that I thus felt myself a sort of
impostor, encroaching unwarrantably on their sympathies, “O! never
mind!” was the reply. “That may be more than balanced hereafter. You
will suffer more, with time--or you will seem to yourself to suffer
more; and then you will have less sympathy. We grow tired of despairing,
and think less and less of such cases, whether reasonably or not; and
you may have less sympathy when you need it more. Meantime, you are not
answerable for what your friends feel; and it is good for them--natural
and right--whether you think it accurate or not.”
These words put a new heart into me, dismissed my scruples about the
over-wealth of the present hour, and strengthened my soul for future
need--the hour of which has not, however, yet arrived. It is a
comfortable season, if it may but last, when one’s friends have ceased
to hope unreasonably, and not “grown tired of despairing.”
Another friend, endowed both by nature and experience with the power I
speak of, gave me strength for months--for my whole probation--by a
brave utterance of one word, “Yes.” In answer to a hoping consoler, I
told a truth of fact which sounded dismal, though because it was fact I
spoke it in no dismal mood; and the genius at my side, by a
confirmatory “Yes,” opened to my view a whole world of aid in prospect
from a soul so penetrating and so true.
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