Linda discovered that she liked Pleydon enormously. She continued
daringly that he might be the sort of man she wanted to marry. But he
wouldn't be easy to manage; probably he could not be managed at all. Her
mother had always insisted upon the presence of that possibility in any
candidate for matrimony. And, until now, Linda's philosophy had been in
accord with her. But suddenly she entertained the idea of losing herself
completely in--in love.
A struggle was set up within her: on one hand was everything that she
had been, all her experience, all advice, and her innate detachment;
on the other an obscure delicious thrill. Perhaps this was what she now
wanted. Linda wondered if she could try it--just a little, let herself
go experimentally. She glanced swiftly at Pleydon, and his bulk, his
heavy features, the sullen mouth, appalled her.
Men usually filled her with an unaccountable shrinking into her remotest
self. Pleydon was different; her liking for him had destroyed a large
part of her reserve; but a surety of instinct told her that she couldn't
experiment there. It was characteristic that a lesser challenge left her
cold. She had better marry as she had planned.
Susanna Noda came up petulantly and sank in a brilliant graceful swirl
at his feet. Her golden eyes, half shut, studied Linda intently.
XVI
“I am fatigued,” she complained; “you know how weary I get when you
ignore me.” He gazed down at her untouched. “I have left Lao-tze for
Greece,” he replied. She found this stupid and said so. “Has he been no
more amusing than this?” she asked Linda. “But then, you are a child,
it all intrigues you. You listen with the flattery of your blue eyes and
mouth, both open.”
“Don't be rude, Susanna,” Pleydon commanded. “You are so feminine that
you are foolish. I'm not the stupid one--look again at our 'child.' Tell
me what you see.”
“I see Siberia,” she said finally. “I see the snow that seems so pure
while it is as blank and cold as death. You are right, Dodge. I was the
dull one. This girl will be immensely loved; perhaps by you. A calamity,
I promise you. Men are pigs,” she turned again to Linda; “no--imbeciles,
for only idiots destroy the beauty that is given to them. They take your
reputation with a smile, they take your heart with iron fingers; your
beauty they waste like a drunken Russian with gold.”
“Susanna, like all spendthrifts, is amazed by poverty.”
Even in the gloom Linda could see the pallor spreading over the other's
face; she was glad that Susanna Noda spoke in Russian. However, with a
violent effort, she subdued her bitterness. “Go into your Siberia!” she
cried. “I always thought you were capable of the last folly of marriage.
If you do it will spoil everything. You are not great, you know, not
really great, not in the first rank. You've only the slightest chance of
that, too much money. You were never in the gutter as I was--”
“Chateaubriand,” he interrupted, “Dante, Velasquez.”
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