English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
But, for my Uncle Spencer, how remote, gradually, they all became! They
receded, they seemed to lose light; and with their fading the figure
of Emmy Wendle came closer, grew larger and brighter. From the first
moment he set eyes on her, sitting there on the floor, taking her
lesson in vituperation from the journalist, my Uncle Spencer had taken
particular notice of her. Making his way towards the pair of them, he
had been agreeably struck by the childishness and innocence of her
appearance--by the little snub nose, the blue eyes, the yellow hair,
so stubbornly curly that she had to wear it cut short like a boy’s,
for there was no oiling down or tying back a long mane of it; even
in her private feminine life there was a hint--and it only made her
seem the more childish--of male impersonation. And then, coming within
earshot, it had been “sarl esspayss de coshaw” and a string besides
of less endearing locutions proceeding from these lips. Startling,
shocking. But a moment later, when he was telling them how hardly poor
Alphonse had taken the joke, she said the most charming things and with
such real feeling in her cockney voice, such a genuine expression of
sympathy and commiseration on her face, that my Uncle Spencer wondered
whether he had heard aright, or if that “sarl coshaw” and all the
rest could really have been pronounced by so delicate and sensitive a
creature.
The state of agitation in which my Uncle Spencer had lived ever since
his arrest, the astonishing and horrible novelty of his situation,
had doubtless in some measure predisposed him to falling in love.
For it frequently happens that one emotion--providing that it is not
so powerful as to make us unconscious of anything but itself--will
stimulate us to feel another. Thus danger, if it is not acute enough
to cause panic, tends to attach us to those with whom we risk it, the
feelings of compassion, sympathy, and even love being stimulated and
quickened by apprehension. Grief, in the same way, often brings with
it a need of affection and even, though we do not like to admit it to
ourselves, even obscurely a kind of desire; so that a passion of sorrow
will convert itself by scarcely perceptible degrees, or sometimes
suddenly, into a passion of love. My Uncle Spencer’s habitual attitude
towards women was one of extreme reserve. Once, as a young man, he
had been in love and engaged to be married; but the object of his
affections had jilted him for somebody else. Since then, partly from a
fear of renewing his disappointment, partly out of a kind of romantic
fidelity to the unfaithful one, he had avoided women, or at least
taken pains not to fall in love any more, living always in a state of
perfect celibacy, which would have done credit to the most virtuous
of priests. But the agitations of the last few days had disturbed all
his habits of life and thought. Apprehension of danger, an indignation
that was a very different thing from the recurrent irritability of
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