It is seldom that the prospect reveals a vessel of more dignified
proportions or presence, though in my drives along one of the
Embankments I came upon a steamer of the modest size which we used to
think large when we crossed the Atlantic in it, but which might be swung
among the small boats from the davits of a latter-day liner. This
vessel always had an admiring crowd about it, and I suppose it had some
peculiar interest for the public which did not translate itself to me.
As far as the more visible commerce of the more sight-seen parts of the
Thames is concerned, it is as unimpressive as may be. It has nothing of
the dramatic presence of the shipping in the Hudson or the East River,
with its light operatic touches in the gayly painted Sound and North
River steamboats. You must go as far at least as Stepney on the Thames
before you begin to realize that London is the largest port, as well as
the largest city, in the world.
There are certain characteristics, qualities, of London which I am aware
of not calling aright, but which I will call _sentiments_ for want of
some better word. One of them was the feel of the night-air, especially
late in the season, when there was a waste and weariness in it as if
the vast human endeavor for pleasure and success had exhaled its
despair upon it. Whatever there was of disappointment in one's past,
of apprehension in one's future, came to the surface of the spirit, and
asserted its unity with the collective melancholy. It was not exactly a
_Weltschmerz_; that is as out-dated as the romantic movement; but it was
a sort of scientific relinquishment, which was by no means scornful of
others, or too appreciative of one's own unrecognized worth. Through
the senses it related itself to the noises of the quiescing city, to the
smell of its tormented dust, to the whiff of a casual cigar, or the odor
of the herbage and foliage in the park or square that one was passing,
one may not be more definite about what was perhaps nothing at all. But
I fancy that relinquishment of any sort would be easier in London than
in cities of simpler interest or smaller population. For my own part I
was content to deny many knowledges that I would have liked to believe
myself possessed of, and to go about clothed in my ignorance as in a
garment, or defended by it as by armor. There was a sort of luxury in
passing through streets memorable for a thousand things and as dense
with associations as Long Island with mosquitoes when the winds are low,
and in reflecting that I need not be ashamed for neglecting in part what
no man could know in whole. I really suppose that upon any other terms
the life of the cultivated American would be hardly safe from his own
violence in London. If one did not shut one's self out from the complex
appeal to one's higher self one could hardly go to one's tailor or one's
hatter or one's shoemaker, on those missions which, it is a national
superstition with us, may be more inexpensively fulfilled there than
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