Kent laughed unsteadily, and looked sidelong at her with eyes alight. She
matched the glance for just about one second, and turned her eyes away with
a certain consciousness that gave Kent a savage delight. Of a truth, she
was different! She was human, she was intolerably alluring. She was not the
prim, perfectly well-bred young woman he had met at the train. Lonesome
Land was doing its work. She was beginning to think as an individual--as a
woman; not merely as a member of conventional society.
“Such is beginning to be the proper stuff--'by granny,” he told her softly.
He was afraid his tone had offended her. She rose, and her color flared and
faded. She leaned slightly against the post beside her, and, with a hand
thrown up and half shielding her face, she stared out across the coulee to
the hill beyond.
“Did you--I feel like a fool for talking like this, but one sometimes
clutches at the least glimmer of sympathy and--and understanding, and
speaks what should be kept bottled up inside, I suppose. But I've been
bottled up for so _long_--” She struck her free hand suddenly against her
lips, as if she would apply physical force to keep them from losing all
self-control. When she spoke again, her voice was calmer. “Did you ever get
to the point, Mr. Cowboy, where you--you dug right down to the bottom of
things, and found that you must do something or go mad--and there wasn't a
thing you could do? Did you ever?” She did not turn toward him, but kept
her eyes to the hills. When he did not answer, however, she swung her head
slowly and looked down at him, where he sat almost at her feet.
Kent was leaning forward, studying the gashes he had cut in the sod with
his spurs. His brows were knitted close.
“I kinda think I'm getting there pretty fast,” he owned gravely when he
felt her gaze upon him. “Why?”
“Oh--because you can understand how one must speak sometimes. Ever since I
came, you have been--I don't know--different. At first I didn't like you at
all; but I could see you were different. Since then--well, you have now and
then said something that made me see one could speak to you, and you would
understand. So I--” She broke off suddenly and laughed an apology. “Am I
boring you dreadfully? One grows so self-centered living alone. If you
aren't interested--”
“I am.” Kent was obliged to clear his throat to get those two words out.
“Go on. Say all you want to say.”
She laughed again wearily. “Lately,” she confessed nervously, “I've taken
to telling my thoughts to the cat. It's perfectly safe, but, after all, it
isn't quite satisfying.” She stopped again, and stood silent for a moment.
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