In those days the prophets were not honored in their own land, and
Concord had not yet discovered her great men. It was a sort of refuge
for reformers of all sorts, whom the good natives regarded as lunatics,
harmless but amusing.
My father went away to hold his classes and conversations, and we women
folk began to feel that we also might do something. So one gloomy
November day we decided to move to Boston and try our fate again after
some years in the wilderness.
My father’s prospect was as promising as a philosopher’s ever is in a
money-making world; my mother’s friends offered her a good salary as
their missionary to the poor; and my sister and I hoped to teach. It
was an anxious council; and always preferring action to discussion, I
took a brisk run over the hill and then settled down for "a good think"
in my favorite retreat.
It was an old cart-wheel, half hidden in grass under the locusts where I
used to sit to wrestle with my sums, and usually forget them scribbling
verses or fairy tales on my slate instead. Perched on the hub, I
surveyed the prospect and found it rather gloomy, with leafless trees,
sere grass, leaden sky, and frosty air; but the hopeful heart of fifteen
beat warmly under the old red shawl, visions of success gave the gray
clouds a silver lining, and I said defiantly, as I shook my fist at fate
embodied in a crow cawing dismally on a fence near by,--
"I _will_ do something by-and-by. Don’t care what, teach, sew, act,
write, anything to help the family; and I’ll be rich and famous and
happy before I die, see if I won’t!"
Startled by this audacious outburst, the crow flew away; but the old
wheel creaked as if it began to turn at that moment, stirred by the
intense desire of an ambitious girl to work for those she loved and find
some reward when the duty was done.
I did not mind the omen then, and returned to the house cold but
resolute. I think I began to shoulder my burden then and there, for
when the free country life ended, the wild colt soon learned to tug in
harness, only breaking loose now and then for a taste of beloved
liberty.
My sisters and I had cherished fine dreams of a home in the city; but
when we found ourselves in a small house at the South End with not a
tree in sight, only a back yard to play in, and no money to buy any of
the splendors before us, we all rebelled and longed for the country
again.
Anna soon found little pupils, and trudged away each morning to her
daily task, pausing at the corner to wave her hand to me in answer to my
salute with the duster. My father went to his classes at his room down
town, mother to her all-absorbing poor, the little girls to school, and
I was left to keep house, feeling like a caged sea-gull as I washed
dishes and cooked in the basement kitchen, where my prospect was limited
to a procession of muddy boots.
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