Mississippi River Valley -- Fiction; Short stories; Western stories
"Wal, we must be goin'. Don't you leave them dishes f'r me to wash,"
she screamed at Agnes as she went out the door. "An' if we don't git
home by five, them caaves orter be fed."
As Agnes stood at the door to watch them drive away, Will studied her,
a smothering ache in his heart as he saw how thin and bent and weary she
was. In his soul he felt that she was a dying woman unless she had rest
and tender care.
As she turned, she saw something in his face--a pity and an agony of
self-accusation--that made her weak and white. She sank into a chair,
putting her hand on her chest, as if she felt a failing of breath. Then
the blood came back to her face and her eyes filled with tears.
"Don't--don't look at me like that," she said in a whisper. His pity
hurt her.
At sight of her sitting there pathetic, abashed, bewildered, like some
gentle animal, Will's throat contracted so that he could not speak. His
voice came at last in one terrible cry--
"Oh, Agnes! for God's sake forgive me!" He knelt by her side and put his
arm about her shoulders and kissed her bowed head. A curious numbness
involved his whole body; his voice was husky, the tears burned in his
eyes. His whole soul and body ached with his pity and remorseful,
self-accusing wrath.
"It was all my fault. Lay it all to me.... I am the one to bear it....
Oh, I've dreamed a thousand times of sayin' this to you, Aggie! I
thought if I could only see you again and ask your forgiveness, I'd--"
He ground his teeth together in his assault upon himself. "I threw my
life away an' killed you--that's what I did!"
He rose, and raged up and down the room till he had mastered himself.
"What did you think I meant that day of the thrashing?" he said, turning
suddenly. He spoke of it as if it were but a month or two past.
She lifted her head and looked at him in a slow way. She seemed to be
remembering. The tears lay on her hollow cheeks.
"I thought you was ashamed of me. I didn't know--why--"
He uttered a snarl of self-disgust.
"You couldn't know. Nobody could tell what I meant. But why didn't you
write? I was ready to come back. I only wanted an excuse--only a line."
"How could I, Will--after your letter?"
He groaned, and turned away.
"And Will, I--I got mad too. I couldn't write."
"Oh, that letter--I can see every line of it! F'r God's sake, don't
think of it again! But I didn't think, even when I wrote that letter,
that I'd find you where you are. I didn't think. I hoped, anyhow, Ed
Kinney wouldn't--"
She stopped him with a startled look in her great eyes.
"Don't talk about him--it ain't right. I mean it don't do any good. What
could I do, after father died? Mother and I. Besides, I waited three
years to hear from you, Will."
He gave a strange, choking cry. It burst from his throat--that terrible
thing, a man's sob of agony. She went on, curiously calm now.
"Ed was good to me; and he offered a home, anyway, for mother--"
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