It would clear a good many things up if such an idea got abroad. No
doubt it was an idea that had come to a great many other men, but
perhaps they had not put it forth in a simple enough way. He had
himself gone to school in his town and later to the University at
Madison. For a time he had read a good many books. At one time he had
thought he might like to be a writer of books.
And no doubt a great many of the writers of books had been visited by
just such thoughts as he was having now. Within the pages of some books
one found a kind of refuge from the tangle of things in daily life.
Perhaps as they wrote, these men felt, as he felt now, exhilarated,
carried out of themselves.
He puffed at his cigarette and looked beyond the river. His factory
was at the edge of town and beyond the river fields began. All men and
women were like himself standing on a common ground. All over America,
all over the world for that matter, men and women did outward things
much as he did. They ate food, slept, worked, made love.
He was growing a little weary of thinking and rubbed his hand across
his forehead. His cigarette had burned out and he dropped it on the
floor and lighted another. Men and women tried to go within one
another’s bodies, were at times almost insanely anxious to do it. That
was called making love. He wondered if a time might come when men and
women did that quite freely. It was difficult to try to think one’s way
through such a tangle of thoughts.
There was one thing sure, he had never before been in this state. Well
that was not true. There was a time once. It was when he married. Then
he had felt as he did now, but something had happened.
He began to think of Natalie Swartz. There was something clear and
innocent about her. Perhaps, without knowing, he had fallen in love
with her, the daughter of a saloon-keeper and the drunken old Irish
woman. That would explain much if it had happened.
He became aware of a man standing near him and turned. A workman in
overalls stood a few feet away. He smiled. “I guess you have forgotten
something,” he said. John Webster smiled also. “Well yes,” he said,
“a good many things. I’m nearly forty years old and I guess I have
forgotten to live. What about you?”
The workman smiled again. “I mean the cigarettes,” he said and pointed
to the burning and smoking end of the cigarette that lay on the floor.
John Webster put his foot on it and then dropping the other cigarette
to the floor put his foot on that. He and the workman stood looking
at each other as but a little while before he had looked at Natalie
Swartz. “I wonder if I might go within his house also,” he thought.
“Well, I thank you. I had forgotten. My mind was far away,” he said
aloud. The workman nodded. “I am sometimes like that myself,” he
explained.
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