Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Vacations -- Fiction
Then he had discovered another thing. She had not married him for
himself, nor indeed, to do her justice, for his position or anything
material that he could give her, but simply that she might have
children. He did not know how he had discovered this, but he had known
it by the end of the first year of their life together, and then, as
their girls had grown, he had seen it increasingly plainly. Any other
man would have done equally well—some men might have done better—and
so he had done his duty.
Then, when he saw what had happened and that there was an end to his
dreams, he had set his teeth and given his soul for the making of money.
Whether it had been a fair exchange he did not know, but he had
succeeded. They had plenty—plenty for the present, plenty for the
future. He need not do another day’s work all his life unless he wished,
and he was only forty.
He smiled grimly as he looked out of the window. He did not whine or
complain. There were doubtless thousands and thousands of other people
in the same case—only, what a muddle! what a silly, hideous muddle.
He was forty, and in perfect health. He looked at his wife again. She
was happy enough; she had her house and her friends and her girls! She
did not want anything at all. And they would go on, of course, to the
end of things like that. For years now it had been the same thing. He
had played the game, and she had never guessed that he wanted anything;
she had probably never thought about him at all.
He was forty, and life was over—its adventures, its emotions, its
surprises, its vices, its great romance; he was a bird in a cage, and he
had put himself inside and locked the door. He looked at his girls; they
aroused no emotion whatever, he did not care for them at all. That was
wrong, of course, but it was quite true; and then it was equally true
that they didn’t care for him. His head began to nod, and at last he was
asleep. He was dreaming of the station and poor Tom Craddock—he grew
fatter and fatter—he filled the carriage—everyone had to squeeze
against the wall to get out of his way—Tom, Tom—this won’t do,
really—have some consideration. . . .
There was perfect silence in the carriage. The girls had not spoken a
word since the journey began. The shining landscape flew past them;
things darted up at the window; cows and trees and hedges and telegraph
wires leapt wildly up and down for no apparent reason whatever. At last
an official arrived and commanded them to take their places for lunch,
and there was instant confusion. Mrs. Maradick sailed into the
dining-car followed closely by her girls; Maradick brought up the rear.
Her sleep had refreshed her, and she was bright and amusing. “Now,
James, look your brightest. Well, Annie darling, and was the _Girl’s
Realm_ amusing? Yes? I’m so glad, and what was the thing that you liked
best?”
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