Margaret Sanger: an autobiography.Sanger, Margaret
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Margaret Sanger: an autobiography.
Sanger, Margaret
Birth control -- United States -- Biography; Sanger, Margaret, 1879-1966
Sometime in the night the new arrival asked me to get him a drink of
water. When I came back into the room and offered it to him he knocked
me into the corner ten feet away. As my head banged against the wall, he
leaped out of bed after me and reached down for my throat. Though
half-stunned and off my feet, I yet had more strength than the man whose
flabby muscles refused to obey his will. The patient in the adjoining
bed rang and in a few moments the orderly came to my assistance. Between
us we got the poor crazed youth into a strait jacket. The doctor who was
summoned could do nothing and in the morning the young man mercifully
died.
To differentiate between things real and things imaginary was not always
easy at nighttime. One morning about two o’clock I was writing my case
histories in the reception office on the ground floor just off the
veranda. Both window and curtain behind my back were up about ten inches
to let in the cool, moist air. Abruptly I had a feeling that eyes were
staring at me. I could not have explained why; I had heard no sound, but
I was certain some human being was somewhere about. Anybody who had come
on legitimate business would have spoken. Perhaps it was another patient
with a knife. Should I sit still? Should I look behind me?
I turned my head to the window, and there an ugly, grinning face with a
spreading, black mustache was peering in at me. It might have been
disembodied; all I could see was this extraordinary face, white against
the inky background. It was not a patient, not anyone in my charge.
Relief was immediate and action automatic. I seized the long window
pole, twice as tall as I, dashed to the outer door, and shooed him off
the veranda. He ran for the outer gate while I brandished my weapon
after him.
Such instantaneous responses must have been the result of having in
childhood sent fears about their business before they could gather
momentum. Now I could usually act without having to think very much
about them or be troubled in retrospect. They were all in the day’s work
of the night nurse.
Probably the fact that I was low in vitality made me more susceptible to
mental than physical influences. Realistic doctors and stern head nurses
tried to keep tales of the old house from the probationers, but not very
successfully. When the colored patients could not sleep they used to
tell us weird stories, and with rolling eyes solemnly affirmed they were
true. One old darky woman, hearing the hoot owls begin their mournful
“too-whoo, too-whoo,” would sit straight up in her bed and whisper,
“Suppose dat callin’ me? Hit’s callin’ someone in dis hospital.”
Again and again after the owls’ hooting either somebody in the hospital
died, or was brought in to die from an accident. Reason told me this was
pure coincidence, but it began to get on my nerves.
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