Margaret Sanger: an autobiography.Sanger, Margaret
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Margaret Sanger: an autobiography.
Sanger, Margaret
Birth control -- United States -- Biography; Sanger, Margaret, 1879-1966
And then stranger events, for which I could find no explanation,
followed. Once when I was making my rounds a little after midnight, I
turned into the room occupied by the tubercular valet of a member of the
Iselin family. I had expected him to be sleeping quietly because he was
merely there to rest up before being sent back home to England, but he
was awake and asked for ice. I started for the refrigerator, which was
two flights down in the cellar. But at the top of the stairs I suddenly
stopped short—“One—Two—Three!” I heard dull, distinct knocks directly
under the stairway.
Not one, single, tangible thing near by could have made those sounds. In
the space of a few seconds I took an inventory of the importance of my
life as compared to the proper care of my patient. I had to walk
deliberately down those steps, not knowing what might be lying in wait
for me below. As I stepped on the first tread the same knocks came
again—“One—Two—Three!”
I tried to hurry but it seemed to me that each foot had tons of iron
attached to it. The little red devils of night lights blinked at me and
seemed to make the shadows thicker in the corners. But nothing clutched
me from the dim and ghostly hall. I got down those steps somehow and
passed through the dining room into the kitchen. There I paused again.
Should I take a butcher knife with me? “No, I won’t do that,” I answered
myself resolutely, and started for the cellar stairs.
For the third time came the knocking. Glancing to right and left, my
back against the dark, I crept down, reached the refrigerator, broke off
some chunks of ice with trembling hands, put them in a bowl, steeled
myself while I chopped them into still finer pieces, and set out on the
return, my feet much lighter going up than down.
I had been away only a brief while altogether, but the patient, for no
apparent cause, had had a hemorrhage, and died in a few minutes.
Many times after that I heard these nocturnal sounds, usually overhead.
They began to seem more like footsteps—“tap, tap, tap, tap,”—very quick
and a bit muffled. Soon I was not sleeping well in the daytime.
One morning I asked at breakfast table, “Who was walking around last
night?”
“I wasn’t.” “Not I.” “Certainly not me,” came a chorus. “What makes you
think someone was up?”
“I distinctly heard footsteps the full length of the third floor.”
“What time?”
“Around four o’clock.”
But nobody admitted to having been up. “Then one of you must have been
walking in your sleep,” I insisted.
The nurse who had preceded me on night duty timidly contributed, “I
always heard somebody. I didn’t want to say anything about it for fear
you’d think I was queer.”
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