Never, but once or twice at the most, did my labours meet with the
slightest recognition beyond payment. Once I remember that I accused a
member of a discreditable manœuvre to consume the time of the House, and
as he represented a borough in my district, he wrote to the editor
denying the charge. The editor without any inquiry—and I believe I was
mistaken—instantly congratulated me on having “scored.” At another time,
when Parliament was not sitting, I ventured, by way of filling up my
allotted space, to say a word on behalf of a now utterly forgotten novel.
I had a letter from the authoress thanking me, but alas! the illusion
vanished. I was tempted by this one novel to look into others which I
found she had written, and I discovered that they were altogether silly.
The attraction of the one of which I thought so highly, was due not to
any real merit which it possessed, but to something I had put into it.
It was dead, but it had served as a wall to re-echo my own voice.
Excepting these two occasions, I don’t think that one solitary human
being ever applauded or condemned one solitary word of which I was the
author. All my friends knew where my contributions were to be found, but
I never heard that they looked at them. They were never worth reading,
and yet such complete silence was rather lonely. The tradesman who makes
a good coat enjoys the satisfaction of having fitted and pleased his
customer, and a bricklayer, if he be diligent, is rewarded by knowing
that his master understands his value, but I never knew what it was to
receive a single response. I wrote for an abstraction; and spoke to
empty space. I cannot help claiming some pity and even respect for the
class to which I belonged. I have heard them called all kinds of hard
names, hacks, drudges, and something even more contemptible, but the
injustice done to them is monstrous. Their wage is hardly earned; it is
peculiarly precarious, depending altogether upon their health, and no
matter how ill they may be they must maintain the liveliness of manner
which is necessary to procure acceptance. I fell in with one poor fellow
whose line was something like my own. I became acquainted with him
through sitting side by side with him at the House. He lived in lodgings
in Goodge Street, and occasionally I walked with him as far as the corner
of Tottenham Court Road, where I caught the last omnibus northward. He
wrote like me a “descriptive article” for the country, but he also wrote
every now and then—a dignity to which I never attained—a “special” for
London. His “descriptive articles” were more political than mine, and he
was obliged to be violently Tory. His creed, however, was such a pure
piece of professionalism, that though I was Radical, and was expected to
be so, we never jarred, and often, as we wandered homewards, we exchanged
notes, and were mutually useful, his observations appearing in my paper,
and mine in his, with proper modifications. How he used to roar in the
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