Memoirs of Bertha von Suttner: The Records of an Eventful Life (Vol. 1 of 2)Suttner, Bertha von
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Memoirs of Bertha von Suttner: The Records of an Eventful Life (Vol. 1 of 2)
Suttner, Bertha von
Peace; Suttner, Bertha von, 1843-1914; Women -- Austria -- Biography
The summer of the same year we spent at the castle of Teikowitz, the
Moravian estate of Landgrave Fürstenberg. He himself was not there, he
had only put the castle hospitably at our disposal. Aunt Lotti and
Elvira were invited too. There were no other guests, and calls were not
exchanged with neighbors; so we four women spent this summer in real
rural isolation and quiet. The beautiful park full of flowers, and the
near forest, offered us blithe enjoyment of nature. Elvira wrote poetry
more assiduously than ever, I kept up a great deal of reading and
piano-playing. We two drew closer and closer in friendship—exchanged
oaths to be constant in our friendship till our life’s end. Our mothers
found it a little tedious, it would seem, for as a pastime they took up
their experiments again to see if the faculty of presentiment still
worked. Once more numbers were drawn and trente-et-quarante cards dealt,
“but only for fun,” they said. For it was proved that the atmosphere of
the gaming-room suspended the capacity for guessing, even when it had
stood the tests ever so well at home; so we would not allow the great
plans and projects to take another start. But it really would be
interesting to ascertain whether that capacity had been altogether
annihilated by the time spent at the real bank, or whether in the quiet
of merely fictitious play it would reappear.
And lo, it did reappear. Not quite so brilliantly as before, but yet
sufficiently to achieve great imaginary winnings. Should we perhaps risk
it once more after all? Perhaps a second time they would be hardened
against the “agitation” there? But no, that would be temerity. Besides,
gaming is a detestable thing, it really afforded no pleasure at all—so
no thoughts of going to the German watering-places again! But here in
Teikowitz it was just as innocent as it was interesting to test that
occult power.... Elvira, who officiated as drawer of the numbers, often
urged that we should take another trip to Wiesbaden by all means; if not
this year, next year anyhow. That was all the dream of her life, to see
Wiesbaden again—it had been so divinely beautiful there.
Before me lies an old album which belonged to my cousin, and which I
received after her death. On the first leaves there are entries in which
is mirrored a chapter of romance that was enacted between us girls.
On the first page a small painted portrait shows my mother, the giver of
the album: “Your loving Aunt Sophie, May 2, 1857.” Then come a few dried
flowers and album-verses from various friends and acquaintances, witty
inscriptions after the style of “S. N. D. our friendship never,”—
And now begins the romance:
For dear heaven’s sake!
Bertha Kinsky
Past!
8th July:
Remember that day. The 3rd friendship was sworn, the 8th you have
proved it.
And on the next leaf,
Thank you!!
[Dried spray of birch]
Not past any more! These leaves are the witnesses of its ceasing to be
past.
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