Memoirs of Miss Sidney Biddulph: Extracted from her own Journal, and now first publishedSheridan, Frances Chamberlaine
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Memoirs of Miss Sidney Biddulph: Extracted from her own Journal, and now first published
Sheridan, Frances Chamberlaine
English fiction -- 18th century
I understand from Sir George, that he flew directly down to Richmond, to
a little house he has there, where he has remained ever since; but sends
every day to enquire after your health. Sir George, I am sure, sees him
often; for he frequently goes out early in the morning, and stays abroad
till night. The increase of your illness, from the time I received the
last visit from Mr Faulkland, to such a degree as to alarm us for your
life, I suppose, prevented your brother from reassuming the subject;
though I can perceive he is full of anger and vexation on the occasion.
You are now, my dear, God be praised, in a hopeful way of recovery, and
I expect that George (who has, by espousing this man's interests so
warmly, very much offended me), that George, I say, will renew his
sollicitations in his favour. What do you say, my child? I should be
glad to know your thoughts, with regard to the part I have acted, as
well as with respect to Mr Faulkland's conduct.
Shall I own my weakness to you, my dear Cecilia? I was ready to melt
into tears; my spirits, exhausted by sickness, were not proof against
this unexpected blow; a heavy sigh burst from my heart, that gave me a
little relief. You know my mother is rigid in her notions of virtue; and
I was determined to shew her that I would endeavour to imitate her. I
therefore suppressed the swelling passion in my breast, and, with as
much composure as I could assume, told her, I thought she acted as
became her; and that, with regard to Mr Faulkland, my opinion of his
conduct was such, that I never desired to see him more. This answer,
dictated perhaps by female pride (for I will not answer for the feelings
of my heart at that instant), was so agreeable to my mother, that she
threw her arms about my neck, and kissed me several times; blessing, and
calling me by the most endearing names at every interval. Her tenderness
overcame me; or, to deal with sincerity, I believe I was willing to make
it an excuse for weeping. Oh! my dear mother, cry'd I, I have need of
your indulgence; but indeed your goodness quite overpowers me. My dear
love, said she, you deserve it all, and more than it is in your mother's
power to shew you. What a blessed escape have you had, my sweet child,
of that wild man! Little did I think, my Sidney, when I told you the
story of my first disappointment, that a case so parallel would soon be
your own. With respect to you and me indeed, the incidents are nearly
alike; but there is a wide difference between the two men. My lover had
the grace to repent, and would have returned to his first engagements,
if a dreadful malady had not overtaken him; but this graceless Faulkland
persists in his infidelity, and would make you as culpable as himself. I
own to you, daughter, that the recollection of that melancholy event
which happened to me, has given me a sort of horror at the very thoughts
of a union between you and Mr Faulkland. You remember the sad
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