Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
“Come, come,” she said, “you must not dawdle like this.” She then
planted the comb in my mop of hair and tore out a handful of it. Pain
and anger at seeing myself treated in this way threw me immediately into
one of my fits of rage which always terrified those who witnessed them.
I flung myself upon the unfortunate Sister and with feet, teeth, hands,
elbows, head and, indeed, all my poor little body I hit, thumped, and at
the same time yelled. All the pupils, all the Sisters, and indeed
everyone came running to see what was the matter. The Sisters made the
sign of the cross but did not venture to approach me. The Mother Prefect
threw some holy water over me to exorcise the evil spirit. Finally the
Mother Superior arrived on the scene. My father had told her of my fits
of wild fury, which were my only serious fault, and my state of health
was quite as much responsible for them as the violence of my
disposition. She approached me. I was still clutching Sister Marie, but
was exhausted by this struggle with the poor woman, who although tall
and strong, only tried to ward off my blows without retaliating,
endeavoring to hold first my feet, and then my hands.
I looked up on hearing Mother Ste. Sophie’s voice. My eyes were bathed
in tears, but nevertheless I saw such an expression of pity on her sweet
face that without altogether letting go I ceased fighting for a second,
and trembling and ashamed, said very quickly:
“She commenced it, she snatched the comb out of my hand like a wicked
woman, and tore out my hair. She was rough and hurt me. She is a wicked,
wicked woman.” I then burst into sobs and my hands loosed their hold.
The next thing I knew was that I found myself lying on my little bed
with Mother Ste. Sophie’s hand on my forehead and her kind, deep voice
lecturing me gently. All the others had gone and I was quite alone with
her and the Holy Virgin in the niche. From that day forth Mother Ste.
Sophie had an immense influence over me. Every morning I went to her,
and Sister Marie, whose forgiveness I had been obliged to ask before the
whole convent, combed my hair out in her presence. Seated on a little
stool I listened to the book that the Mother Superior read to me or to
the instructive story she told me.
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