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They walked past Mendel and Morrison without seeing them. Mendel
gripped Morrison's hand until she felt that the blood must gush out of
her nails. Logan opened the swing-door for Oliver, devouring her with
his burning eyes, in which there was a desperate set purpose of which
he seemed to be almost weary. So frail he looked, as if but a little
more and he would loose his hold even on that to which he clung. And
Oliver smiled at him with a malicious promise in her eyes that he
should have his will, that his hold should be loosened and his
weariness come to an end. Clearly she knew that he had no thought
outside herself.
And outside the two of them Mendel had no thought. His mind became as
a tunnel down which they were moving, and soon they were lost to his
sight and he was left to wait. There his thoughts stopped, while he
waited.
IX
LOGAN MAKES AN END
ALL night long he paced up and down his studio. His thoughts would not
move, but went over and over the scene in the Cave, and probed vainly
in the darkness for the next move. When he heard footsteps in the
street he hung out of the window, making sure that it must be Logan
come for him. But no one stopped at the door, and soon within himself
and without was complete silence, save for his footsteps on the floor
and the matches he struck to light cigarette after cigarette, though
he could not keep one of them alight.
His imagination rejected the facts and refused to work on them. The
scene in the Cave had left an impression upon his retina, like that of
the cinema--just a plain flat impression containing no material for
his imagination. And yet he knew that he was deeply engaged in
whatever was happening.
With his chin in his hands he leaned out of his window and watched the
dawn paint the eastern sky and the day wipe out the colours. Doors
were opened in the street. Windows were lit with the glow of the
fires, and the day's activity had begun, but he had no share in it,
for he knew that this day was like no other. For him it was a day lost
in impenetrable shadow, and he could not tell what should take him out
of it. And still he expected Logan would come.
He heard Rosa get up and go downstairs and light the fire and bawl up
to Issy to jump out of his bed, filthy snoring sluggard that he was.
He heard the voices of the children and the baby yelling. . . . How
indecent, how abominable it was to cram so many people into one small
house!
At the usual time he went over to his mother's kitchen for breakfast,
and gulped down his tea, but made no attempt to eat. Golda looked at
him reproachfully, but said nothing, for she saw that he was in some
deep trouble.
After breakfast, as usual, he went for his walk down through
Whitechapel almost as far as Bow Church and back.
In his studio when he returned he found a policeman, who said:--
"Mr. Mendel Kühler?"
"Yes."
The policeman handed him a letter from Logan who had scrawled:--
"I believe in you to the end."
To the end?
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